wAiTiNg fOr U tIlL dA eNd oF dA wOrLD!!

2007-06-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

okays after nearly 2 mnths of mia-ing in blogs. time to blog la . .
this holiday rocks i think .
club 2 times only . :D
but theres lotsa sad things to be reminded of uh .

it starts at a camp at somewhere on sometime back ago .
he joined the camp with his friend and realised theres not a lot of people
from his school joining .
so he and his friend was splitted up .
he felt lonely and foreign as he does not know anyone .
everybody to him was a stranger.
the leaders talk to him and he tried to replied calmly .
in case if they feel that he is afraid or what .

the first day he was very quiet.
as he was a shy boy .
second day he became more energetic and trying to join in the pack .
third day was the last day .
he only got 2 friends with him .
2 new friends.
the rest he does not really talk to them .
'
but here comes the treasure hunt event .
he was split among his group into small groups .
one of the mission was to hold hands with a opposite sex.
he was lost.
he dont know who to find or who to hold .
just then .
he saw her .
she was alone .
he walked towards her and asked her .
you mind ?"
she said " no .
and they hold hands.
he did not know her existence til he saw her .
she look like a princess to him .
they had lots of fun .
in the end .
she ask for his number to keep as a friend .
he felt happy .

so he went home and messaged her .
and get to know her abit more .
he thought she was the same age as him .
but never did he expect that she was 1 yr older.
and 1 year older means her thinking is so much older too .
he wanted to give it a try.
he wanted to go for her .
maybe he is naive.
but he is trying his best to do it too .

so theres an event hosted at a place.
and he was in school collecting his o level certificate.
she called him asking whether if he is going .
he was wearing casual clothings without extra clothings.
he wanted to say no .
but after thinking he agreed and rushed down to meet her .
after meeting her he met two of her good friend .
so they were chatting so happily til reaching the destination .

they sticked with each other very closely .
even dinner they sat in a circle.
and had fun together.
discussing things.
and took the same transport home .

although he likes her .
but he does not express out .
he is scared because she might just ignore or reject him .
so he keep quiet and act calmly .
he does not want to let people know he likes her .

so he just agrees on whatever she is doing or what .
after a few weeks.
they met again .
and this time it was different.
she was very heartbroken because of some things .
he saw her cry .
but was aimless .
because he does not know what to do .
or how to console .
he is neither good in consoling nor comforting .
he felt helpless .
staring at her .
crying.
what he could do was giving her tissues.
he wants to hug her.
but he has no courage .
until now .
he still remembers the event clearly .
how heartbroken he was .
when he saw her cry.

he felt he got a chance at first.
but he threw it away again .
and until now .
he still .....
struggling .

end .
:D

anyways what a long story uh .:D
end here .
do homework time . =/

2007-05-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

so tiring.
so damn tiring.

i wonder how i survived these few days.
mentally tired. but just refuses to lie down and sleep .
so these three days been cyclin !
seem to me like im heck caring things ya.
just feel down these few days.
=/

alright. cycled to ecp at 23:50 to meet up with andy and ben in bk .
so began to cycle to the jetty near pp underpass.
slacked dere and drank beer.
the wind dere was soooooo cold can .
but it r0cks .
at first it was really really cloudy .
but after a while .
it began to scatter. and stars appear !
so we sang wo ke yi .
then when the wind blow .
we sang feng.
kinda feel high .
and i miss ktv. but my voice isnt really improving.
i want back my voice seriously.
okays. so slacked there til 3++ and cycled home .

then i sms my new friend serene and chatted til about 4++ am .
ahhahah.
she taught me kinda lotsa things about life.
eg. live life as it is.
what for think so much ?
hmmmm . it can be controlled. =)
cant really remember le .
but thanks for de comfortation .
i felt lotsa better.

hmmm ,
so today .
woke up at noon sias.
jitao omg -.-
cuz i forget i meeting serene at 1.
den its like .
i forget scythians meeting 1 at bedok inter.
so i rush rush rush to parkway .
den scythians were still at bedok inter.
and serene was with her nafa friends.
so went to starbuck to drank a mocha frap and went arcade.
bored until bo bian . played initial d again lohs .
hmmmm. i got conned for bball .
i shot so many balls and scored but the score doesnt really update.
so pissed off i guess .

den i walked back to ntuc near parkway to meet serene .
and serene said she needa go home to put her things.
so i said alright and waited for her.
i think .. i wait damn long lah ! haha !
cuz i dint tell her that most of them had reach !
and i thought she knew .
den she rushed out and we went to meet scythians !
so most of them wanted rollerblading .
ahhahah . so i serene and one more guy call ., er forget le . ignatius or something ?
den we went to find wan,our gl . (:
so we were getting trick and moving here and there lahs .
so in the end we found out wan's real whereabout and rushed dere.
so when we rushed there.
they alrdy wanna go back le .
so we stayed on coz we can speed. so those who canot speed started their journey back again .
cool uh .
so we play daidee and heartattack.
laugh and laugh can .
so funny.
so played for 20 mins i guess.
and rushed back to the renting shop .
so it takes me about ... 20++ mins lahs.
i cant remember . speeding like mad .
i love speeding with my bike !
although its not that good.
but at least it can provide me with the speed i want i guess.
i love serene's bike !
damn cool .
and it cost 800 buxx.
wl .
how i wish i got her bike can . =/

so slacked there a while .
and here comes yisheng with his cold jokes.
den serene also COLD JOKES.
so its getting colder lohs .
so after that.
they planned to walk to pp lohs .
so serene was like going to her good friends house to keep her bike cuz ex mahs .
so accompanied her to go .
and then i cycled her to pp lohs .
haha!
she kept complaining about my cycling skills .
cuz i like always going to crash poles or something i guess.
but i dint la !
hmmm . so reach pp .
parked my bike .
and started walking ard.
went mph and she bought her things.
the magazine she bought is so cool can .
the decor . super swee .
woah .
i can imagine my house now lohs .
but its the drawing that matters.
alright. so we walk walk walk .
and she called dola !
ahahha . so she say we goonna eat at hawker centre.
so walked there lohs .=/
den met theem and had dinner. after dinner went to venezia icecream to have our icecream .
i dint know our gls all love icecream can .
the icecream is tasty too ! +D
alright.
then the cam-whores ruling the place ! =D
gl night ! =/

alright.
so wanted to find mountain and farhan.co-
but couldnt. so slack outside standard chartered bank ,
=/

so played game call ohmohm CHUCKY!
ahahhah . i dint kena hit cuz i dint play at the start.
ppl want sabo me canot sabo .
wahahahha¬

alright.
and it was time to go .
so cycled home in 20 mins or so ba .
cuz constant all the way .
tml school le .
i hate school now .
i guess.
=/

okays. really tired le .
nights.

yisheng i dont know whether shld i jiayou a not. ^^

2007-04-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

lalalala.
what a tiring day today . l0ols .
wl .
really monday blues sias.
slept at 3am woke up at 7.30am .
totally shag can .
so waked up and packed my bag and planned to bring my laptop go. ^^

wl .
den realised. my bag is so damn bloody heavy .
so its like .
carrying gold to school .
not used to it .
blahs .
=/

okays.
so today first 2 hr tutorial iwd.
so its like .
they asked us to planned some crazy ideas sias.
den i just heck care and tell de lecturer.
eh. then shopping centre moving in the highway good a not .
den my team laugh like shit sias.
LOL .
=/

alright . then after that. all the way lectures.
irritating.
damn tiring can .
fed up with it .
so squeesy seat and cant concentrate.
so in the end take out lappie and play.
so bored also.
den when its emaths.
the lecturer suck to da max.
say so fast.
she thinks we yr 2 study sias.
even if got a maths foundation suddenly so chims one also
cmi lahs .
so fed up with teacher. i shouted " eh slower lehs"
den dont know why teacher angry . den i also not happy with her .
l0ols.

so after that. went to do my ckt hwk lohs .
then went home.
at first promised eric say that i wil go dinner .
but in the end my clique dint really go lohs .
so forget it le .
and also damn tired le .
so lying down at home like worm liddat. l0ls .

oh ya. had lunch with scythia people which ended up being separated lahs.
so in the end sat with eric also .
hmmm. so chatted abit and had our lunch lohs .

whee! tomorrow outing.
hope our clique all attending.
games games and more games.
i miss the old things when we laugh like mad. =/
<33s.

nights. damn tired le . long post everydaynow .

and oh ya. serene's song are all kinda oldies! LOL . =/

2007-04-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

hi and once again .
l0ols.
alright . its gonna be may1st soon .
shagg.

the stupid trial caused my whole body to ached quite badly.
totally lost the mood to go out or whatsoever .
was slacking and shagging to da max til about 4pm .
when kz called me and ask me whether if im available to play soccer.
so agreed and they came to my house and borrow bicycles from me ,
alright . so met at void deck and gave them a bike .
went to met ken . then andy .
so kinda slowly , we cycled to ecp lohs .
usual route. victoria. (=
so reached our destination ! the field.
so began to talk to sandeep cuz too long never talk to him .
hes like . hip now or what uh .
got one earhole .
mmm ..
so played with his friends lohs .
i performed like shit i guess.
muscling aching .
and my team still got some teamwork.
and thats kinda cool .
andy scored two.
and hes super high i think .
and i made my first sliding tackle in my life.
i never believe i will do it sias.
but its damn cool .alright .
it feels like , you are fallin down !

alright. so played about .. 1hr+++ .
then changed my shoe back and we cycled to mac.
ate mcflurry. and guess what.
i dint know andy got his mcflurry already .
den i still help him take.
LOL !
so its like .
we got 3 when we ordered 2 .
am i getting lucky ?
or this is my lucky month. and i've missed it alr .
omg . if really missed it . im gonna cry can .

alright . so after eating mcflurry was discussing where to go
to have our dinner .
after thinking damn long.
den we went to ecp de hawker lohs .
=/
i cycled damn fast i guess .
i dont know what was i doing .
and why the hell i will cycle so fast.
so i reached the wakeboarding place like 15 mins or so .
then they were spamming calls on me and ask me where am i .
so met up with them le .
went to the hawker.
very very packed can.
took kinda like 20 mins den can find place.
and the cleaner uncle still refuses to help us clear our table .
totally kinda pekchek lohs .
so we hands-on approach.
diy !
=D

so drank tiger beer with andy and its damn cooling .
maybe the previous weeks i've been kinda heaty.
so feel quite okays ! =D
so after that .
cycled home lohs . =DD

alright .
tml school .
i feel strange when i see u .
i dont know why.
is this infatuation ? hais.
sometimes. i think i thought too much for it .
maybe and just maybe.
we are just friends.
nites.

2007-04-29T01:04:00.000+08:00

errr. hi ?
wow . so long since i blog again .
and now using my lappie to blog.
cool eh .
wahahhas.
= /

alright . got my lappie on friday .
been experimenting whats good and whats not good.
lolls.
alright .

firstly. im gonna say sorry to my friend serene.
made her rush to tp with a cab that cost 8 buxx.
lols.
den in the end,
i forget to tell her that we needa wear shoes.
omg.
den when she wore slippers. i know chams liaos.
haix.
i feel so bad lahs can.
she came less than 20 mins i think .
then she leave le.
she still smiled although .
but i feel very bad to the max.

okays . end =) canoeing trialing sucks to the max lahs can .
went for it .
kinda screwed i guess.
i couldnt even get thru the stamina station .
kinda sad.,
but i bo bian lahs .
=/
den went for a shower and went to kfc with adib shaf yusoff and andy .
so saw people that i dont like de. oops.
but i heck care lahs .
see liaos also sians .
alright .
den talk and learn some malay.
LOL.
adib mantat siOL .
i only know this one for now i guess.
alright .

den went back to bedok view de netball court for football .
met fellow ibt seniors i guess.
at the start.
only 12 ppl i gues.
den after that.
20++ people flooding the court.
was playing defender once again .
but kinda sad. i didnt perform well .
stupid knee. after running the trials all begin to hurt again .
so w/e can .

hmmm .. stopping now ..
im so confused over love now can . =/
stop asking me this and that.
im struggling .
although i know who i like now ,. (:

2007-04-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

okays. finally got time to blog laaaaaaaaaa..
wl. this few days totally shagged to da max lahs can.
my friends from design no school sia.
then the rest of the poly had school .
wl !
quite bad lahs.
dont want to say le .
so its like .
everyday 745am wake up .
830 take bus .
1pm released.
WAHHAHAHHA .

and thats for wed.thurs.fri .
everytime! =D
okays. mon is like 9-5. monday BLUES.
which i hate it damn alot.
den tuesday was 12-5.
so its quite alright for me .
just abit irregular laaa the timetable.
i think i'll be able to cope with it .
okays .
here come the bloody hell part.
lectures SUCK to the core man .
not interesting.
and lecturer doesnt put in effort to make it interesting .
i'll be sleeping if i dont hear my ipod for almost every lectures.
quite fed up with it alr.
its just that i dont want to bring my psp and play can .
=D
okays. so far so good.
lab was abit like shit .
breadboard and so on .
wl .
i see le head pain .
and the bloody teacher.
dont want to teach me the right way also .
everything go thru in class .
ask only go thru .
how to learn like this .
im enthu to learn but teachers seemed to heck care.
quite fed up with it .
dont make me pon school. ^^

alright. joined canoeing.
this sat trial .
doing my best .
i think .
im gonna go for all until i get my cert.
i just love canoeing ever since my sec4 nyaa camp .
^^

with much loves. =D
okays. tml lappie coming .

OMG I LOVE IT . =D

ending here. =)

2007-04-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

ahhahs.
sorry for not typing out day2.
cuz went drinking and watching football with friends.
and so .
day2 :

hmmm .. woke up at 6.30..
when we need to fall at 7.20
its like .
cant sleep lah.
at night .
got people talkin about an emo guy .
and laughling like mad .
and guess whaT.
one of them is my cs friend somemore.
bloody cuckkoo . =D
hmmm ..
so and somemore ,
someone making mini concerts.
singing songs that sounds like shit lah.
i sing like 100x better than him lohs .
he kena reject from campus superstar then bobian. = /

so woke up le hor .
straightaway pack some of my things in ..
den went to brush my teeth and wash up .
so after that, went to check my towel .
it was still wet like -.-
so decided not to take it out . =0
so sat there and stare on my surroundings like a moron .
so its 7.20 !
pt time .
wahh . pt was hell lah .
sleep not enuf le .
althought pt was kinda slack.
still bloody tired.
so kinda dont remember what we did le .
den it was afternoon le .
oh ya , debriefing was quite tense lahs.
cuz we aint leadin
and we are the last.
hmmm . bad bad news lohs.
so we were like determined to push ourselves back to the game .
so after having our lunch .
we had station games.
okays ,
that was not bad after all . =/
but we only played one station.
and the dark clouds begins to flood around the sky,.
and it rained -.-
so its like , i recovered from illness and it just rains.
so wtf - - .
okays so forget about all of it already .
we went back to our sports hall to assemble.
then our main comm tell us to play games and discuss about
our performance night.
so one of our teammate. amanada.
wrote a script lohs .
den because most of us are lazy to think .
so decided to take the SCript.
so at first, we were like splitting into groups .
like . dancing,the actors,and the fighters.
cuz our script is about our group name ,.
which means that it is a empire with warriors .
and the script is trying to say that.
in order to win the princess ,
the guy must beat everyone in order to get her heart.
so its like , quite touching lahs.
i joined the dancing de.
LOL .
at first i was suppose to make girls' sound laaaa.
but bo bian ,
in the end i go dance also .
so we discussed and planned for like 2.1/2 hours .
quite baddd laaaaaaaaaaaa.
oh ya i remember already .
morning we were learning mass dance and the handsign songs.
=DD

okok .
so after that, had our dinner,
most of us rush to have our rehearsal .
we almost screwed up i guess.
=)
so its performance night time !
ROXXXORRRR.
so high lahs can .
this year's trend .
all gays.
-.-
super zai .
i thought we were unique to think of this .
but all of the empires got ..
zz. -..- bth .
okays .
so after everythingg le .
ITS DANCING TIME !
so we MASS DANCE .
and iTS SO HIGHHHHH .
and sing tp song and handsign song .
and after that .
ITS DISCO TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
LOL .
the dj ,
abit ..
- -
the song .. --
u know u know .=D
shall not say more .
quite nice lahs.
but not a lot of effort shown in remixing.
just always a small part.
okays i dance for 45 mins and i stopped.
so damn blooodyy tiring .
so went to find kaiwen to get a drinkk .
yea, drink .
so they decided to get their supper.
when im still full .
so forget it. i followed them lohs .
bwg,
so slack at the vending machine and was like going to sleep .
so slack there .. for 1 hr i think . or more .
and WE WERE LATE to gather.
OMFG.
=/
but forget it laaaa.
wasnt delibrately also . =/
so debriefing was like 1hr+ also .
about 1am finish . COOL HUH . =/
so after that waiting to bathe .
and i think . i slept at 1.30am .
LOLLLOOL.
super duper tiring.
tml write 3rd day . SO MUCH TO WRITE KAYS. =)

2007-04-14T23:23:00.000+08:00

FOC ROXX.=)
wtf,
only 2 went for the camp.
its like .
omgomg?
hmmm ..
so its like,
i went in the sports complex with jj .
and i was splitted away from him .
hmmm ..
screwed.
totally so foreign sias the group .
the group ,
i think i dont even know 1 lohs.
and i cant shout for the first day. LOL.
my vocals got prob sial !=/
so i bwg llohs.
whole day keep quiet like guai kia.
and somemore a guai kia got 3 earhole .
so abit strange lo . =/
so first day they thought us cheers and play icebreaker lohs .
standard mah .
=/
i think we dont really know each other's name so well also lohs.
so the gl (group leader) thought us cheers and introducing themselves lah .
tp's ppl are cool i can say .
whahahha . =/
hmmm . so played and cheer until dinner.
looked forward to the dinner cuz i dint eat breakfast and lunch .
so abit shag also .
loll .
budden ,
the dinnneer...
i shall not say anyymore =D
so after the dinner , due to the wet weather .
our station game's venue got change from tampines central to tp campus .
and because to start first, we must cheer the loudest.
and the first day . it was bad lahs.
nobody know each other.
onlly got a girl call minmin.=/
i can only say i really peifu her to the max.
at first i see her,
dont really like her .
now i really know never judge a book by its cover.
she got good leadership qualities sia.
she got initaitive.
which i dont have.
sian , ppl still say i got leadership qualities.
now i begin to doubt le .
i think part of it because i scared ppl say this not good there not good bah.
haiz. =(
i want cry le lahh . =/

okays.. so ...
i dint play the station games.
cuz everybody cheered too loud and i cannot take it .
so head dizzy like mad .
so ate medication and rest lohs .
hmmm .. so debriefing starts again and feedback is coming .
okays.
so i write until here le .
tml den cont. to write. tiredtired me. (:

2007-04-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

loll . todays such a HOT day laaa.

i overslept two hours for today's soccer.

so paiseh .

reach there at 10.30

when they start at 8.30

loll .

=/

but managed to play for an hour or so .

so not bad lahs.

play until strain muscles.

hmmm ..

so after football ..

cycled to kembangan mrt to give ben his wax.

loll .

so i cycled back to bedok interchange .

then realised i neeeda take things from my auntie.

so cycled to my auntie's house .

took the items and left instantly .

went to the market near my auntie's house to packet some lunch .

its tiring i guess.

i cycle around for so long .

loll .

hmmm ..

so reach home instantly go bathe.

=/

but its damn hot laaaa.

hmmm ..

so finish lunch and use computer a while .

damn boring lah today .

nothing to do .

tired like mad cuz i slept at 5am .

i almost forget .

but i still cant get to sleep .

so today totally damn shag.

play what lose what .

bwg.
=/

hmmm ..

so at night .

parents took me to simpang again .

ate a heavy meal i guesss.

ahhaha . drink kambing soup .

and now the side effects comin .

and its damn hot .

wahhah . .

hmm .. sometimes i wonder .

why do i lose the confidence to call you .

now i dont even dare to call you .

are you that scary to me now .

i dont know lahhs .

anyways know a new fren today .

from temasek sec.

^^ ahhah .

2007-04-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

回忆起我们小时候
闭上眼睛就能感受
在我们心中慢慢流动的温柔
离开了我们小时候
现在你会不会想我
也许你找到一个人为你守候
我了了

okays this song rocks. =/

hmmmm .. one day has passed again ..

im gonna play soccer this morning . omg -.-

8am ..

god.. and im still awake .

awaiting for football to commence.

=/

ahh ..

okays.

so today practically did nothing .

cs dota ps2 psp .

cool eh me ?

=DD

hmmm ..

so jeric came my house and play my electronic devices.

his ankle seem to recover abit le .

god bless.

=//

so we were playin and playin. .

waitin for time to fly pass us .

so after playin . i decided to use the computer.

saw ya online and talk to ya .

at first it was alright .

its the middle and back got problem .

we seem to debate again .

haiz.

i will always lose .

i cant win .

nowadays.

u abit only jiu angry angry .

or give abit attitude.

haiz.

i really want back the old of you .

i dont even dare to ask u .

for now.

the red hot tempered you .

i cant take iit .

i hope i can take it .

i can hold on.

i really hope i can hold on .

your a good girll .

i dont wanna lose you .

goddammit .

i feel like a failure in love.

i got nothing to say to myself le .

haizTODAMAX.

okays .

end here . byebye =DD

2007-04-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

okays. time to blog today ..

wahhah .

i almost screw myself in tp cuz i forget to write lotsa things.

borrowing pens here and there.

hmmm ..

at least i dint rot at home today.

=//

oh ya , my fingernails getting damn long liao . now typing keyboard pain like hell .

bth .
=/

next time can paint red liao . =DD

gothic gothic.

hmmmm ...

so today after handing in . went to tm to help dad

check things.

so M1's having a 10 yr anniversary .

and giving out one samsung phone .

not bad sia.

kinda bo bian to take it laaa .

den went to singtel .

singtel's phone damn ex laaa .

bthh . =/

my house now got..
7 lines!

loll. cool ? =D

hmmm .. so check le go rush kfc.

cuz morning was prayin ..

hmmm . then reach home tired like hell .

slack here and there doing nothing .

then suddenly dad call me for dinner.

den i go back computer and just nice got match

awhahha .

so i play play play .

play until ..

i FORGET the time .

my dad meet me at 7.

den in the end. i play until ..

7 ? LOLX.

was kinda gone case .

so rushed my bike to blk18 to meet up with my parents.

had dinner. talk abit about what i've to report.

then they took my dad's car home and i cycled home .

loll . what a punishment .

ii still needa packet dinner for my bro who is sleeping at home .

hes a pig .

LOL . =/

hmmmm ..

okays its done.

4 days 4 days .

i wonder how long i can take it .

its not i dont want to call you .

call you makes me feel ..

haiz. ):

maybe just .

maybe i can never be with you .

i cant think positively.

2007-04-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

blog blogg blog !!

nowadays gonna be active le !

whee !

hmmm ..

today okays lo .

went to pierce back my 2nd hole .

im gonna pierce my 3rd soon .

so im gonna have. one big 2 small .

wahahh ! one can put yakult straw le . im satisfied. =D

errr, poly's coming so fast.

loll . tml went to tp .

but it was close .

i thought poly's open 24/7. LOL .

oo0ps. maybe i think too much .

hmmm .. so pei my brother lohs.

go tm buy stationery den go arcade walk walk .

saw bags. but cost 159 . >.< can cry w0r !

hmmm . havent really go buy clothes allso .

22 days more to the start of the course .

our poly starts 1 wk later ! =))

hmmm ..

today whole day like dreaming also la.

never message .

never call ppl .

just like mia- .

haiz.

then that stupid ben also .

dont want online .

mia one day also.

dont know for what -.-

hmmmm .. so as usual . pc,psp,ps2

read some newspapers. do some stupid dumb things.

watching tv.

ah . =/

my life is wasted siaL .

=/

nowadays really never contact my sec school frenz le .

thats any problem ..

nothing to talk about and nothing to tell each other .

all i want is have fun for now !!

hmmm . cycling !

i always lazy cuz lonely .

hope tml i will just go cycle !!

hmmm . ending here ba .. =/

byee !

2007-04-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

its 31st.

last day of march .

tml april fool .

ah goddammit .

time flies.

i hasnt being doing anything . for sure .

i regret . and regret .

what is this .

its like when 1 day had pass .

i will begin to regret somethings.

so now in my heart.

theres so many things to regret .

foolish me -

dumb me -

stupid me -

im always stupid .

no wonder people love to say me stupid .

i cannot take jokes.

why cant i take jokes ?

or some jokes really hurt me. ?

i really dont know liaos.

why cant i stop saying dont know .

ahh. fuck it lahhs.

there is so many questions .

so so so so many questions.

to figure.

why cant we click like last time. ?

why cant i have a chance like other guys.?

why cant you let me try once.?

why am i so lousy in handling my own relationships?

i really cant figure it out .

maybe im just a failure.

time to blog today.

today is practically another boring day.

was suppose to go out to bedok reservoir .

but in the end i woke up at 12.

so i forget it le .

so in the end i also forget about my admission forms .

ahh. tomorrow confirm must go le .

i dont want to be slacking at home le .

okays ..

i have made a agreement with melise .

and that is to be the top student in tp for my course.

hope i can do it . =/

nowadays i will be posting long big posts. =DD

ahhah . o0ps . cuz too many things to write le .

hmmm .. been playing computer , psp , ps2

turn by turn .

loll.

wahhah . shall i mia. ?

i feel like going mia .

--------------------

you are not the old you le ..

why issit so hard to communicate with youu .

i dont want to say it here de.

but it really sucks to put inside ur heart .

i just feel like asking you .

why cant we be like last time ?

happily chattin and sharing some probs .

going thru some life experience or whatsoever .

now we just remain so quiet.

everything becomes so serene.

i dont dare say much things also .

den you ask me to talk .

but i scared to talk .

so wtf is this .

haiz.

everything is going the wrong way i guess ..

further further it shall be. hais.

i dont even think that you will huan lo me if im mia .

haiz.

bye blog.
time to stop .

2007-03-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

karniniahs.

i dont know whether how long i can hold on .

i have a temper.

but i cant release my temper.

fucking hell . u dont even know when your words hurt people.

i ren . ren . ren .

but how long can it last ?

i dont know man .

FUCK IT LA.

okays shall blog about today .

bloody boring day ..

at least there is still people that can accompany me play cs.

or else im rotting at home lahhhhh cann . =/

hmmm .

today what i can do is message message message .

and somemore. the stupid weather.

i cant really go out .

i dont want kena drench until like ... wtf. >.<

den so when i drag it .

the sky gets darker .

so in the end also lazy to go out liaos luhs .

trytrytry.

try what sias.

its not like , u dont know who i like sia .

whalan eh . still tell her try.

hear liao damn fucking sad can ..

but at least i bo biann .

i cant let her know my feelings.

just can keep askin .

hmmm ...

im perservering even though i know theres no chance.

am i foolish .

sometimes i feel like crying out laaaa.

this is not em0 .

this is tragic i think .

fuck up tragic.

at least im not like other ppl .

always say life sucks or what .

haiz. =/

smile and tml will be a better dayy,. ?

i hope so laaaa. =D

oh ya , dad brought me and bro to eat indian food. what a dinner . wahaha .!

simpang bedok roxxx. =DD

okays lah . i shall stop now .. time to slack ard computer and smiling . although they are fake smiles.

2007-03-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

ookays.

its time for a new life.

a new time to blog .

okays life's been a mess all along in my life ..

everything's screwing up i think ..

=/

okays. firstly i got my psp back alive. (:

fixed it 110 SGD . =D god dat was ex i think ..

okays. poly's startin . its gettin shag i thinkk .

they dont even ask us to go buy or textbooks or lappie?

ooh cool man.
=DD

okays. im posted into Tp's intelligent building technology.

its kinda bad or kinda good to me .

im not sure .

cuz if i study hard, i may continue on this .

and big companies will hire me !

=/ not a bad choice ehh .

hope i can do well .

or else i have to take a private cert i thinkk .

god . dat is wastin time man.

okays .

about love life .

well . like one girl ?

haiz.

how i wish to be with her .

but shes so far from me .

im emo =D

okays . dont wanna say anymore .

what i can just say is ..

im waiting for youu. =D

what to do !

im just so loyal can .
=/

not bhb lehhs .

haiz. !

okays . working working working .

at somewhere.

doing some things.

hope can earn abit extra $$ to loosen my wallet.

its so tight now .

and overbudget.

god and im still rushing movies with good frens. ^^

okays . hope i can watch no.23 =DD

hmmmm .. what a long post .

its time to stop !! =DD takecare !

2007-01-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm .
okays lah .
today blog lohs.
boredom kills !!
everyday stay at home .
really si eh siann .
hmmm . didnt do welll for prelims.
no 3 month for me !
hmmm .

seeing friends going for 3 months der thingy
make me so jealousss wor .
hahah .
hmm ..

tml going out again .
my phone is back .
everything resetted.
i hope i could be reset also .
hahaha !

hmmm .
outta cash .
=(

im gonna dig the soil to get cash .
at least there may be a 10 cent or what .

heeeeee .

okays .
gonna stop now .
wanna slp lerhhs .
tc !~
bye bloggg.

2007-01-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

okays.
this 2 days is such a bore.
omg . - -

firstly.
yesterday actually wanted to go
to amelyn jie's party.
then its like .
WTF.
WHY NO .
quarrel and quarrel.
but they still dont allow .
then lanlan lohhs .
hmmm .. =(

sorry jie . *

haha . so slacking everydya now ..
not doing work .
not finding work .
hate myself seriously.
but i got nothing to complain about .
hmmm . lazy lazy me .
=)
2 weeks more or even 1 month.
who knows .

okays forget it .

my handphone is spoilt.
i will LOSE ALL MY CONTACTS IN IT .
WTF .
AND I FORGET TO DO A BACKUP .
FCUKED UP MAN .
haiz.
no choice lohhs .
hmmmm .
no mood le .
saturday im lookin forward ba .

u and him .
takecare ba .
to him - if u dare hurt her again .
i make sure .
u gonna pay .

2007-01-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

todays quite a funny day lah.
having mixed feelings the whole day.

at first was kinda angry .
cuz kw got sacked from his job the first day .
then he was at bugis alone .
so i went to find him and
dressed up with a meeting with melissa later.

so it was like .
i accompany him play lan for 2 hrs
instead of slacking at home for 2 hours.
then in the end.
he said he going to kbox.
instead of going with me to meet melissa !
idiot sia .
den i no comments lo .
so took a train to city hall .
was sick somemore .
den holding on a handkerchief that joyce gave it to me .
so paiseh lohs .
but no choice.
cuz sick mahh .
hmmm . !~

so waited for about 15 mins for melissa.
as usual . she is always late .
but im used to it .
so went to marina square to catch a movive.
so we went to the counter to get tixx for
the movie panz labryinth.
nc16 show . lolz.
and we asked for 2 tickets.
the cashier asked us .
" would u like a corner couple seat for u 2 ? "
den its like .
we all stare at him blankly .
and started laughing .
so paiseh sia .
anyways do we look like couples?
LOL.

the show was at 6.40pm.
and we were getting the tix at 3.40 ?
LOL .
so went ard shop shop lohhs .
den shop and shop and shop .
the shop that we stopped the longest was quiksilver bah .
cuz melissa was getting a pair of slipper.
and i was interested with a wallet there.
looks cool !
ha.
so she bought her slippers.
and i was still thinking ..
so left the shop and continue shopping .
before that we went to mini toons .
to get venetia's present .
wonder if she will like it a not .
=X
lolz.
just a photo frame.
she dont like den i x.x

so went suntec.
and it was like .
world of warcraft expansion launching day .
people carrying a few boxes of these expansions walking all ard.
so xl sia .
and the game is so damn bloody ex.
rich kids nowadays.

so walk walk walk walk .
we walked no-stop .
den went back to marina.
and had our late lunch ba .
and its before we went to quiksilver.
oops
=X
so i treated melissa cuz i owed her one meal .
the food looks okays. and taste okays too .
so not that bad .
quite satisfied bah .
24 bucks =)

so after that shop shop shop .
den it was time to watch the movie.
was looking forward as melissa said its nice .
but not that bad la .
rofl .
xD
its abit too ..
draggy .
but its tryin to tell us something .
fairy tales do exist.
xD
hmmm .
was abit of a violence.
madness .
about a war in spain .

hmmm .
so while watching the movie.
decided to think whether i should get the wallet a not .
not bad lehhs .
xD
in the end when we finished watching .
we went toilet and rush back to the shop .
and i took 1/2 hr to decide which wallet to buy .
we had a good chat with the salesperson there.
when i said i want a sky blue wallet.
he asked me .
" ARE YOU SURE ? "
then i was like laughing laughing .
and melissa was laughing like mad la .
so in the end got the black one .
buay paii lahh .

so after that .
went to bedok to meet joyce and jeric .
talk talk talk talk .
1hr plus.
all about bgr.
LOL .
not bad lahh .
den my parents call .
first sentence .
" you dont make me scold u hor, "
then i was like . diao ?
hmm .
so rushed home lohhs .
then now blogging.
hahs.
end of blog @~~

nights . tc. tired !~

2007-01-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

haiz.
as usual.
today sick like z .

headache.
cold.
soar throats.
stomach aches .

all are bothering like z.
im not going to see a doctor .
i dont even wanna care about my health .
haiz.

in a dilemma .
dont know what to say about that .
forget it .

i think sometimes.
i should keep some things inside my heart.
although its suffocating .
but i think i should do that -

tomorrow watching movie when im sick .
nevermind.
=)
at plaza sing .

thinkin back the time when i liked her 1years and a few months.
really think im a hero sia.
can like a girl for so long.
seriously i missed the time for that too .

now everything is in adult concession .
money money money .
everything we do needs money .
and the problem is .
i resigned my job .
im just not used to the job .
and it doesnt let me learn new things.
if u mean those good manners and the way of
carrying lugagges.
then i nothing to say .

coughing like mad nowadays.
cold weathers.
and im sweating .
im abit mad .
im suddenly so afraid of cold .
what to do .
xD

everything has passed.
things have changed.
time has been flowing off my hand .
im wasting time.

i seriously regret about my seconday school life sometimes.
maybe because of my ignorance.
i didnt study well .
but sometimes when i think about it.
i think i shouldnt regret it .
cuz i found a few good frenz and a sister ! =)

okays. time to stop .

tckcare blogg !~

2007-01-14T22:19:00.000+08:00

enjoyed the time with u all =)
went to dxo underage party .
with kaiwen kelly joyce melise huiyi william and more.
but some forget the name le.
lolz.
was the first time to go clubbin.
so didnt really know how to dance also.
hmmm!
we are spot on anyways =)

hmmm . first time i dance and shout so much .
so highh .
although most of the songs are in R n B .
but enjoyed it nevertheless.
dont know how to dance?
see people and follow.
xD
although there may be some difference.
but it still looks ok.
=)

we dance for 2++ hours bah .
lol !
we were tired.
then went out to rest.
so i and kaiwen went to 7-11 to get things.
but we were so dumb to go one whole round.
so we took 1/2hr to reach the 7-11.
and 10 mins to walk back. - -

the atmosphere is not that bad .
get brawl somemore siaL.
the bouncer pin someone down and sent him to police.
the bouncer so damn fierce sia .

anyways. after the party.
saw wx and his frens.
but they left there early.
then,
we decided to walk and go sightseeing at 4am.
merlion .
we take merlion as our counsellor .
when we have problem.
we shall talk to the merlion .
so slack at there til 5.45am .
den walk towards raffles mrt station .
then while we are walkin pass fullerton hotel .
the security guard warn us not to go all the way straight .
as there is a fight there.
hmmmm..
so we reached the mrt at 6am.
but the gate opened at 6.30am .
so we waited and waited.
lOL .

after that , went to eat mac breakfast wth joyce.
then because she wants to check her friendster.
so took her home to let her use my computer .

felt super sick - -
throat hurting, head going stars.
was gone case.

after that . shall not say le .
cause its a boring day after all cuz im SO SICK .

tc !

2007-01-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

okays .
today's a boring day .

anyways .
jj asked me to go his house take wc3
to reinstall.
but i lazy.
so train with pubs loh.
but then .
i met a few pro pubs .
so begun training .
wtf .
my obsidian tio own badly .
but nevertheless .
i get my 2 afghanim.
but its lotsa slower .

i dont know how to play well for tomorrow .
i just dont wanna think .
its stressful .

work is gonna start soon .
another problem .
my hair -.-"
haiz .

very pekchek loh .
everyday must be neat.
and i know i cant be neat .
haiz.

miss ya !
hope to go out more with ya !
heee ! !

haiz meiis.
im sorry this few days i didnt pay attention on u .
kinda dont feel well too .
it sucks to be in the position u are now .
ur so suffering.
i share ur feelings too .
(: smile lots ! ~
find a job first ! ~

hmmm . tomorrow sp dota compy .
sure do badly one .
because my computer is down .
and my brother's computer not using us west
and bunch of morons dont know how to install mirc and zion .
so in the end .
we seperated in training .
forget it lah .

no confidence at all .
just hope i wont flunk in this .

okays . !
if everyday u treat me like today on phone .
i happy le !
x)
today is kinda happy !~

okays lahh.
im getting broke too .
no money >< "
and jj owns me 60 bucks .

i <33s u . xD

2007-01-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm ..
okays ..
new year, new resolution .
2007 is here. no doubt .

time passes like water waves.
the time we graduated seem so fast.

okays .
now waiting for o level results.
yes. its very big . according to my friend's questions.

finding some stupid work that needs to make my hair so so so .
not so like exploded hair .

im so poor .
not like my friends.
some who are even younger than me are richer than me .

im so pitiful !
donate me some bucks can .
or starbucks also can.
all are accepted.

it has been 1 month ever since i last blogged.
so many things happen.
yet i just kept it in my heart.

its so suffocating .
its like .
i cant tell anyone .
and i have to bear to see some people come and go .
some people who had become friends instead of lovers.

those are just some sad endings.
but nevertheless,
we must look forward =)

okays.
this holiday .
knew quite a few friends like ... ?

dont plan to write out their names.
as they also nv see my blog der.
so what for write ?
cuz i dint even tell them the url .
-.- "

okays .
time to earn some money.
i need a laptop .
a nike bag.
and last but not least. CASH .
w/o cash i may not even want to go out .
today i went out with 20 dollars.
and i had to spent another 60 dollars.
whoo. that was cool .

anyways .
my new friends are lamers.
they love scolding me lame .
but the problem is .
the pot calling the kettle black .

okays lahs .
dont bully them.
but they always pick on me .
always bully me .
so not fair one .
i need to appeal for somebody to help me bully them .

okays lah .
stop blogging le .
this is so long already .
because my friend say very long .
-.-

2006-11-28T08:46:00.000+08:00

just another sadd day .
emotions running wild ..
this grad night kinda rocks x)

haha ...
was totally late for da event LOL.
but everything was late also lah .
and in the end,
i was still not der latecomer.

hmmm...
took taxi with kwanzheng jiajun ken.
lol ...
we were like quarreling about the route to take .
so the whole taxi was so noisy ..
anyway..
when i went in the taxi ..
all were like saying..
wahh gangster ><
paiseh like shit .
zz

it wasnt my fault lah .
cuz my hair ,
sometimes its red, sometimes its gold .
so i got nothing to say ..
no comments also ..

hmmm ..
so the thingy starts ..
haha ..
congrats to bah and fina jie.
lol .. prom king and queen .
kiss on cheek somemore worr x)
lol ..

it was kinda wrong atmosphere...
for the dance. .
cause the dancefloor is so small lah .
so its seriously very hard to squeeze ..
until the last song ..
grad song.
LOL.
all high ..
all cry because of the powerpoint ..
seriously ..
the emotion were high ..
even enemies will become friend .

all da hugs.
handshakes.
were full of sadness ..
typing this out can already make my tears flow ..
at first ,
we always think that seconday school life pass so slowly ..
but ..
4 years had just passed..
seriously cant believe we are leaving our friends again .
its like p6.
haiz.

anyways ..
just came home anyway from bear's house ..
rushed like mad.
slept for 1/2 hr or 1 hr bah ..
not sure ..
cuz i was sleeping in the carboard. ><
not fair man . =))

i want myyyyy pictures ..
hais .
end here.
<3 u all =)

2006-11-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging since im so bored.

2 months ...
too many things just happened ..
maybe this is too sudden.
or maybe this is not a good sign.
after o's.
went straight for pool.
went for some dota match .
and i just couldnt seem satisfied with this kinda things.

i wanna go out with her-
i really do want ..
but i just cant ..
cuz i am too afraid to ask ..

another thing ..
a sad ending ..
never ever wanted that to happen also .
but ..
it just happened
.
in the o levels .
worse than craps .
it spoils my days too ..
everything changed.
our friendship changed.
nothing will ever be the same again .

lost .
6/2 chalet with not alot of people .
but nevermind ..
still have at least .. =))
ahha ..
dont care lerhhs .
the best is still the chat between me,marcus,zimu,timothy and kaiwen.
just love the talk of animes.
sweet. =)
won quite abit from chalet too .
actually like 10 dollars dehh .
stupid kw owed me 2 bucks .
dont care .
i just want my money back ..

haha ...
solo-ed one long island.
just love the taste .
=))
so got kick lo . !
i sick still dream
den the whole head become so feverish ..
<3
guess im gonna drink it again soon ..

=))

okays .
when holidays arrived.
why does some couples faces problems?
because of what. .
i seriously dont understand ..
can someone enlighten me ...
my head just hurts. thinking this kinda questions ..
miss ya badly in the chalet. .

nevermind ..

the first day of chalet ..
went to wild wild wet. .
sad case that we couldnt hold on to our phone ..
or we will be taking photos together ..
me .. jeric .. kwanzheng .. jiajun .. jordan .. kaiwen ..
brothers 184 sia !
lol ..
at first it was me jeric kwanzheng jiajun only ..
but in the end when they joined us. .
they went too ..
what brothers =))

hahas ..
thats why .
went to red house .
but it was torn down too .
nevermind ..
=))

FINE . =)
stop blogging lerhhs .
seriously its long that i just blogged. no pictures yett ! lazy to upload .. <3 =)

2006-09-30T02:16:00.000+08:00

time to bloggg !!
okies.
my computer is going haywire again.
nowadays.
problems just pile and pile.
and im lazy to deal with it .
u know it.

why am i always the man .
who .
is always stuck in some stupid situations.
where im suppose to put in some nice words for my friend.
but they think ..
the task is super EASY.
thats what i loathe it most.
i wonder why am i such a good friend.
i exploded just now .
shouting vulgarities on the open.
im like,
pissed.?
forget it .

friendship.
i thought they were precious jewels to me.
precious things.
precious memories.
now i realise.
all of them are just another illusion i guess.
how many good friends i have?
a few only .
xP

love.
i dont know what to explain for it now .
im just so lost.
lost.
im on da verge to ..
fall .
but i dont know .
i thought of many things.
but jealousy is in front .
maybe because of some stupid incident.
bleahhs .

im contented now .
with a jie.dasa0.and 2 meiis .
3 brothers. or maybe 4.
i dont know ?
maybe this is how my life go .
im cursed.
x))

i know what girls want.
but i dont know what i can do .
so stop asking me what to do .
its super irritating.
i can share ur problems.
but not letting u scold me .
i did nothing wrong .
and some people just blasted me off.
said that i flirted with his love.
f that-
i dont know what to say .
commentless.
xP
go slp le.
2am -.-"

2006-09-24T13:49:00.000+08:00

After a month of inactivity.
decided to blog again .
maybe, deep inside my heart ..
there are lotsa things to clear ! xP

ok. yes-
my prelims are bad as usual .
but i improved xPP
maybe thats the good thing.
and maybe thats a bad thing.
o's ! i hope that i could get better than that a lot .
=)) not just a small improvement.
its a very good improvement.

okies.
tiring days nowadays .
what to do .xP
2 mths only .
hmmmm !

people always think that.
when both party like each other.
but afraid to hurt the other party.
they decide to do the first move.
and that is to tell them to give up.
hmmm !
i do not agree so .
maybe because of my surroundings.
most people regrets after they did a certain
decision.
thats why.
i hate to see people with a face of regrettion =X

its the heart that matters.
when u go out with him/her.
u feel happy. safe.
thats the way it should be .
no feeling.
would you all still continue to talk to them ?

and some people.
shouldn't just give up so easily.
JIAYOU.
NOT DIE.
what for being so sad ?
think about them and improve urself.
they canot change for u only .
u have to change urself.
so the love wont go off =))

2006-08-12T20:47:00.001+08:00

ok .
blogging in another hotel right now .
its cool .
at least there is free internet i suppose.
woooooo..

blogging.
today went to visit the president's house.
the museum
and the olden time houses.
quita boring i guess.
and hot i guess.
but it was still nice lah.
enjoying.

went to shop.
the things there was kinda nice.
but kinda expensive.
cause most are counterfeit.
those original .
are expensive.
100k and above.l
one france jersey. 99k won .
hmmm. singapore dollars 140.
at least.
wantedto buy a fake air force.
but there wasn't my size.
idiot sia.
11 the biggest.
i got nothing to say.
35k won.
abt 60 bucks.
cool cool .
fake one 60 bucks.
but its almost real.
thats what i like lah .

hmmmm ..
kimchi fried rice.
damn nice la.
on top got cheese.
damn hot .
damn song.
drank lotsa water with it .
hmmm ..

2nd last day le. .
tomorow coming back le ..
hooooo..
midnight .
12am reach .
6 hours.
damn .
-.-"

bought so little things.
i guess there was really nothnig to buy seriously.
sorry guys.
i guess.
hahas.

these few day had been a nightmare to me.
how much im scared to get lousy grades.
how sad i would be .
but i cant do anything anymore.
i had to acccept the reality bahhs .
damn .
shit this mna .
precise.

i miss my copperhead.
i miss my mousepad.
i miss my computer.
i miss my handphone.
i miss my friends.
i miss my pals.
i miss you .
hugs takecare smile .

2006-08-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

2006-08-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm . in korea blogging .
not bad wor.
in a hotel.
hahas.
got free internet.
inside the room needa pay 4k won per 1/2 hour.
woot.

not a bad trip after all lah .
quite nice lehhs .
not that bad lahhs.
first day ..
visited some places lohh .
er.
ate some fantastic lunch.
took a maple leaf.
which is like orangey/red de.
so nice.
<3 it .

hmmmx..
2nd day .
climbed the mountain .
5 yrs ago i did that in winter.
5 yrs later i did that in summer.
one is cold.
one is hot .
cool isnt it .
hmmmmmm..
after that visit their branded street.
really ex.
one nike shirt
70 bucks and above.
abit seh seh .
their import tax is seriously amazing.
nothing to comment.

today's the third day .
was nice.
went to everland to play.
bought something meaningful.
for you.
hope u dont mind.
hmmmm..

still got 3 days more.
den i will know .
about my results.
a 4 or a 3 .
i rather get a 3 first.
at least it wont be so demoralising.
i wont be as crestfallen as ever.
english oral is around da corner.
shall cut hair when i get back.
fuck life.
why is life so straightforward everytime.
i tried my best.
maybe not my very best.
and i hate to disappoint people.
i seriously hate that.
can someone help me .
thanks damien.
for that few sentences.
good friends are hard to pass by .
thanks .

ur depression.
issit ok ?
hmmmmm .
ur results.
ur blog dint show .
worried .
missing you.
im sorry for not .
calling you .
<3 hugs.

2006-07-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

time to blog .
wow. the find just suddenly look so nice to me.
strange.

this few days were sorta irritating.
maybe i dont feel good.
maybe i dont want to hear.
maybe i just wanna run away.
goddammit.
cant you stop telling things.
about you and her.
oh yeahs.
i smile to you.
but den.
deep inside me.
u know how pain bo.
i just dont wanna mention.
but you simply dont understand-

hmmmmmmmmmm.
may be a blog that is not updated always.
sorry about that.
been indulging in some stupid games.
but playin with friends.
so no choice.
im slow in training.
because im moodless to train.
dammn.
tomorrow's o levels lc.
hope just can get a full marks.
hmmmmmm.
have a hunch.
that i wont get good marks.
bleahhs.
nothing to say .

its been so long.
so so so so long.
thinking back.
so many things had happened !
people i like ...
things i done ...
what mad things happened.
those are really memories.
hahas.
maybe im being abit dramatic.
but thats me.
who cares about it anyway.
i hate being so fierce.
goshh .
sometimes.
i just really wanna release everything out.
but i just cant.
CANT.
WHY.
i also dont know .
just know that.
its painful painful ~!

maybe now its not the time to do this.
maybe its the wrong time that everything happened.
hmmm.
dont care le ~
see how it goes..
hmmmxxx !~

frankie's party was yesterday.
so DAMN tired.
rushed all our food like mad asses.
really tired.
it was rather a bloody day for me.
just because i go break the ice with the tongs.
i cut 5 fingers.
fabulous >? x))
out of 10 fingers.
5 injured.
while eating spag.
i suddenly realised that i bled.
then i stared at mel.
then she see my hand.
den suddenly everybody saw it.
i was shocked to hell lohs.
den everyone so kanjiong.
den i myself stunned there.
madness.
5 cuts.
3 out of 5 deep cuts.
isn't that bloody day?

after that.
continue eating.
and the forks i touched.that big piece of ice.
all got blood.
gOSHHHH.
after finishing eating.
den went up to bear de room`~
played my NFS with nicky .
he got owned.
my rx-8 looks like as if it is the king.
hahas.
maybe im too exaggerating.
but who cares.
x)
after that. all went to bear's top floor de room.
played mahjongg.
taught joyce and lifang mahjongg.
cool ~
not bad.
after that i went to play cheat ~
WOOOOOO~
to say the truth .
mel is the greatest cheater.
omg.
she cheats emotionless.
den the dumb bear and nick.
sometimes so dumb.
until everyone laughed.
muahaha.
x))
after that. i let lifang play.
in the end.
they said lifang is very honest.
LOL.
that is like so LOL can.
played this 2 games until midnight.
then WALKED home.
goshhh~~

hahas...
next morning got tuition
sibei siann de wor.
wake up and sitting there like an idiot.

hmmmx.
cousin came my house.
and played a gundam game.
WOOOO~
I GOT DA INTERNATIONAL FOR FFX.
finally.
im gonna defeat that so-call DARK YOJIMBO.
7 times.
overall 30++ million.
cool isnt he ?
one move of his damage the whole team 99999.
Lolz xP

hmmmx.
overall.
for sunday.
i was thinking the whole day.
i could not settle down.
i dont know why.
my mind's being turning and turning.
pissed.
shall not say anymore.
time to sleep.

i give up with no reasons.
i know.
im weak.
since he really seemed to be so close with her.
i cant do anything.
who knows what will happen
i think too much seriously.
im slowly letting it goes.
sorry brothers.
i disappoint you all.
x)

2006-07-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

hmmmx.
tiring tiring day.
cant blame.
its hard and it makes ppl sleepy.
what to do.
damn tired.
maybe its because of maple.
hahas.
bored liaos.
x))

hmmmmm..
i wonder.
i wonder.
i wonder.
some things i hope are true.
so that its easy to release.
please make it true.
gosh.
x)) god bless.

my ps2 is back.
hooray ~
now i need controllers. BEAR.
u took both of my controller.
my brother almost went haywire because of u.
idiot.

im guilty.
i spoilt the old comp.
just because i forcefully put it in.
godddamit.
600 bucks.
almost a new comp lia0s.
just changed a few things and casing+fan
hmmm
hope its good.
x) smileesss.

i got an audio technica EARPHONE.
wow its so damn cool alright.
although it cost only 27 bucks.
it looks cool.

i might be broke again.
dammit.
thought i would be rich.
but stupid computer cost me a BOMB .
x(
nevermind.
i shall slowly slowly be thrifty once again
goshhh.
HAH.

tomorrow gonna have sepak takraw again.
it just rocks.
improves my dribbling very well.
excellent ~
hmmmm.
im gonna get a boots soon.
i hope so =)
saving money.

ppl asked me whats my new target.
i just replied.
nobody =)
hmmmmm.
maybe i just feel abit uneasy hearing some things.
just gonna bear with it.

TAG ME PLEASE.
=))
the taggieboard is da link to my tagboard.
its just too long lahhs.
so i converted it to a link.
sorry wor. !
tc. smiles.
SWEET DREAMS ! =)

2006-07-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

football madness.
thats what i know only.
im so in love with football.
whee~
scored 7 goals today.
sibei song.
i so long bo score goal.
suddenly today.
left right foot all can score.
LOL.

hmmmx.
its hard to let go.
maybe im sensitive.
nevermind
just bearing it and moving on.
thanks for visiting my blogs friends
i appreciate a lot.
its a small blog.
hope a lot of viewers.
sad sad story.
thanks benjamin (east spring de)
i will cheer up brother.
thanks huiyi.hahas.
life's being tough though
although i had all my good frens around.
smiles.
x)
i never regretted going for u.
x))

its the end.
its near the end.
im running to the light.
enlighten me.
nights.
tc ~

2006-07-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

fuck.
just realised i got too much homework to hand in i think.
zzzzz.
tired tired tired.
blahhs.

hmmmm.. now blogging at such a time.
isnt it great.
been moodless.
been settling down my feelings.
been down.
been happy.
been sad.
forget it.
i dont know what to say.

some people just hurt me with the words they say.
its just that i bear with it.
i dont let people to know whether they had hurt me a not.
its jusst that.
they just fucking take advantage.
i got nothing to say.
im not Mr. Nice Guy anymore.
it makes me so dumb.
so idiotic.
so moronic.
everything let let let.
might as u stay at my house.
move luggage.
give u my bed.
right.
hmmmx.

just throwing out stuffs like this.
i dont wanna have misunderstandings between u and me.
forget it.
our friendship is rocky.
i dont know what to do.
and im not doing anything
im serious.
im just looking at it.
just trying to hide my feelings away.
fake happy.
and so on.
u think im happy.
just because i smile.
forget it.
i dont know whether u understands me a not.
u still tells me about her. what the .
what u want me to do.
tell me lahhs.
tomorrow.
not going lan.
i needa do some tuition homework.
giving up.
for the sake of him.
Z.
no choice
my blessings
tc.
x) smile. hugs.

2006-07-06T20:02:00.000+08:00

todayy was a good day !
i think.
out to school with a happy mood.
won $$ !
wooooo~
hahas.. tio scolding also blur blur de.
wheeeee..
although its a long day.
laughters and so on.

went to school and never thought of taking note of her.
even if she walked pass or what.. i dont have the courage to look too.
i dint look.
i look on the board.
pain.
so pain.
although i dint got her.
but it still hurts.
bearing with it bahhs !x)

football rocks.
basketball rocks.
swimming rocks.
been playing this few things for the past few days.
isnt that sweet ? x))
im on the diet i guess.
i wanna be abit slimmer.
its too fat now.
x)
80kg my target.
long wayyyyy..
x))
hahas.
stoppping here.
brother wanna play.
i haven eat dinner.
rock on peeps !

2006-07-05T16:57:00.000+08:00

hmmmx.. blogging everyday now.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
everything seemed alright today .
x)
nothing wrong i guess.
i dont wanna say anything.
maybe its a misconception.
maybe thats just nothing.
maybe i think too muchh.
i shall stop these once and for all.
its up to you to go for it.
and its time for me to stop and go back.
its just like relay.
so, i cant stop either ways.
i cannot harm you.

nevermind.
money.girl. blahs.
they are more important.
i wont talk to you that much either.
why let me see these scenes.
you all dont realise its hurtful.
im also human.
i will get green.
why tell me u all going out?
why this and that.
im fierce.
yes i certainly am fierce.

one sentence can just take me as fierce.
serious tone?
funny.
no people said that was fierce.
only you said that.
maybe i get the wrong idea.
maybe i just get it wrong.
and i cant get it right.
sorry .

walking back-
maybe its just for my own good.
everybody saying im avoiding.
yes.
im avoiding.
but what to do.
STARE at them ?
o.O
im sick of listening to problems suddenly.
because suddenly i just had too much worries.
worrying this and that.
ahh.
maybe im just too kpo liaos.
i shall not care so many things anymore.
wait a million years.
den maybe some things may change.
PUI.

when someone dont smile,
it does not mean they are sad.
when someone smile,
it just hints that they may be giving a broken smile.
i cant say its wrong to smile.
its just smiling at the right time or the wrong time maybe.

im wrong.
just wrong.
wrong to the core.
wrong wrong wrong wrong.
everything just went wrong.
i am me.
em ma i.
why must i change for the sake of the other part.
it depends.
not saying that this is a bad habit or whatsoever.
stupid me.
i guess im stupid this time.
beaten by my stupidity.

being stupid kinda rocks too. =)
at least they do not need to care-
of the surroundings and so on.

tonights match.
portugal france.
do i even care who win?
so what portugal win ?
so what u all jeered portugal?
so what you all dont support portugal.
issit my problem?
i support france.
and i dont jeer portugal.
they are two strong teams with-
individual abilities on the field.
what france will lose.
if france win how ? stupid fools .

maybe what i type now is venting my anger.
but some things are true.
irritating.
just throwing everything out.
i dont care much either.
not happy can go away.
one lesser reader or one more reader.
i dont mind.
at least i knew i got close friends with me.
x)

pain pain pain pain -
dieting now i guess.
=x
hmmx.
trying to lohs.
i wanna be slim.
but not fat.
just okok can le .
x)
now i just cant run that well le.
just realised.
-.-
fat fat fat fat.
last time run 2.4km = not that jialat.
now = DIE.
slowly slowly building stamina.
swimming running swimming running.
isnt that good? x))
wahahs.
chocolate..
damn.
i got so muchhhhhhh at home.
tibits too.
bEar with it bahhs.
abit will do horrs.
x))

hmmx.
tomorrow will be thursday le.
time pass.
damn.

struggling with everything.
no effort done.
studied to no avail.
maybe.

i dont care whatever u all do le.
bless u all .
tc.
god bless all.
x)
smiles.
hugs.

2006-07-04T18:02:00.000+08:00

this few days were hell to me .
not just hell.
just make me feel lost in the darkness.
i did not know what to do suddenly.
everything just popping out suddenly.
it just makes me hard to react.

sorry my brother.
i know how u feel now.
thousand apologies. sad to the core.
i should not have done that in the first place.
im sorry .

thinking back.
i was selfish.
i did not go and understand other people's feeling.
i just asked people to go out and blah blahs.
sowwie sowwie .
hais .
thinking bad i was an idiot man .

today is just a bad day.
i talked so much.
but inside me,
theres so many things hidden from everyone.
i dare not say .
i dare not tell.
worried.sad.disapointment.
no happiness or something.
only with some gamer goody goody friends.
at least we laughed like mad
thats the good thing.

hmmmmmmmm..
went swimming today.
was abit moody.
so kept swimming and swimming.
more than 10 rounds bahhs .
last time i can do in continuously.
now i cant.
sad.
abit disappointing again.

had a bathe there and off i went to get dinner,
until now, im sitting on the chair in front of my computer.
germany italy.
what is this .
-.-
lols.
just hoped it draws.
x))
SMILE !

i love the picture we took. =x
thanks so much my baichi de meis .
x))
always scold me baichi.
actually u are the one lohhs .
x))
hmmmx .
yesterday's steamboat was nice. rockon! x))
3 couples.
and 3 bachelor.
x)) WHEEEEEE..
hope we gonna have it another time !!
these are friends we cherish .
x) smilesss.
x))
hugsss takecare all .
imalright and dont worry.
x)

2006-06-29T17:56:00.000+08:00

hmmmx . wasnt a good day though i didnt went to school.
heard that school was beginning to slaughter people . wow.
social studies. hmm. homework stacking. i needa do. gosh.
a busy night i guess. needa rush so much.
hmmm. tomorrow is o levels chinese oral.
heard that the questions are hard for today.
hope tomorrow wont be that bad. LOL

everybody is having the same problem.
the problem everybody does not even hope to happen.
god bless.
smile !!
hmmm!!
im feeling the same..
though i felt like giving up le .
never even succeed before.
hahas =X
i hadda let go i think.
maybe you're right.
and im wrong.
hope everything goes well for u !

now.
focusing on HOMEWORKS .
i didnt know .
there was so MUCH homework.
6 Structure. 6 Source Base.
God bless -
I got nothing to say .
7 HANDOUTS too .
wth -.-
dint notice.
omg.
im left with 6 hours.
i needa rush .
guess im gonna RUSH FOR THE LAST MINTUE.
tc all !
this blog is back ! x))

2006-06-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

hmmx. last day of the holidays !
hahas ..
1 month has passed too quickly.
never did a lot of things that i wanted to do .

hmmm. 3 more months.
o levels. i dont care anymore computer a not bahs .
one day 2 hours. i think its enough for me to bear with it.
x))
<3 .

devil beside me rocks lahs . so nice.
every sunday 1.50pm chnl 56.
whee. .~~
nicenice !!!
the ah meng's hair so nice.
im gonna keep his hair.
x))) HAHAHA.

homework.
oral exam.
tml i needa find out from people whether if there is anything .
HEE.
cant wait to go back.
maybe i spent too long hiding at home.
maybe i spent too much time going out with my cs pals.
woot.
guess i know 2 more zai and steady frens .x))
FORMLESS SEH .
KOYUICHI . x))
LOL .
good frens.

hmmmmx ..
shall blog til here.
i shall blog everyday to stop myself from playing so long bahs .
this hols also had given me experience.
smile.

takecare ! slp early !
today england vs ecuador.
WATCH LE THEN SLP .x)

2006-06-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

done. time to post abit before doing somemore homework.
bloody hell.
my parents also know i dont have much time to play.
and they still shout shout shout.
for my own good i know.
bleahhs .
i've nothing to say .

today just another boring day. what to do .
stay in my computer.
staring the computer.
nothing to do .
play warcraft.
den o2.
den cs.
hais .
this is my life i guess
hahs.
hmmmx.
school gonna start soon.
hasnt been practising my oral too.
hmmx.
hope i can get at least a good.
x))
i must have faith in myself.
pia hard!!
i dont wanna waste my ten years of education.
bleahhs .
say until liddat.
but im still lazy.
hahs.
x(

hmmmx.
time to do some homework.
what a waste u dint went to genting.=x
sad case arhhs meiis .
x))
hmmmx.
tc~! enD -

2006-06-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

d0ne with my skin.
just did some changes.
im still a newbie make my own skin.
hahs.

hmmx.
just came back from my msia holiday.
wasnt a bad trip.
spent 1/2 of my 4 days sleeping i guess.
everyday sleep 5 hours.
cool right ! x))
den at holiday sleep until like pig liddat.
whees~
genting was nice i guess.
just the lack of time spoils the whole thing.
irritating.
so many noobs playin initial d i guess.
but how?
i got cheated by genting .
spent so mmuch money on the english version.
f- =x
hmmmx. penang trip was fun bahs .
before going to genting.
i was at penang bahs .
hmmx .
met up with my dad's best friend.
he was cool.
treated us dinner.
which is local food lah.
which is like.
SO NICE .
eat eat eat -
HAHS.
drank carlsberg the first day.
too tired.+drank that bitter drink= SLEEP.
hmmx. then the next day. went to 4 temples at least.
bored bored bored.
yet some temples were enriching i guess.
=))
then went to one of the shopping plaza at penang.
SO EXPENSIVE .
wanted a nike bag. parents allowed me to buy .
but i disallow myself.
am i dumb? the price was 129.90RM.
then plus discount. it was 90RM only.
damn.
i was guilty bahs.
den no choice.
BLEAHS .
=((

nevermind.
each of this just kinda rocks.
x))
hmmmx.
im gonna get a yellow backpack i think. x))
and my EARPHONES.
my psp's earphone.
2 times spoil.
i really nothing to say le .
all left side spoil.
cursed-
idiot.

hmmmx.
school's opening soon.
went out for movie just now with my new friend.
hahas.
RV was nice.
x))

LonG LonG aGo . x))

2006-06-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

Hmmx . its been 5 months . and it really seemed like ten years.
i shall blog cuz quite a lot of ppl are sayin my blog ish DEAD .
so shall take the time now to blog .
hmmmx .
so many things happen in this 5 months .
i dont know how to put it anyways .
there has been a mixture of feelings inside this 5 months .
desperate. disappointed. stressed . and more .
i had happinness . i had sadness .
thats what everyone had .

i knew i had already stepped on the wrong step . =))
but i shall run back and walk the right step . =))
im still waiting . one yr and 6 months . right ? x))
everyone said i was dumb .
but what can i do .
hais .
3 MORE DAYS .
my 16th birthday.
finally im 16th .
so many things i could do now .
more freedom i guess .
my parents aint so strict anymore sometimes .
but i needa know the limits .
i love them . X))
so what issit now .
my bdae wish ?
plenty =))
first one was to give my parents so happiness . =))
next was to have YOU . x))
last one . everlastin happiness .
im too heroic to write this man .
gosh .
ahahas .

mid yr was a total disaster to me .
37 points .
i could have just bang the wall and go off dyin.
trying to catch up everything i could man .
its so bloody hard. i just hope poa would be better .
seriously*
studying doubly hard for my poa . its to catch up .
homeworks stacking .
english tomorrow . yet i dint know whats for homework .
im going to bang the wall soon .
if i cant finish by tomorrow .
im gonna be in hell .
x))

this holidays just pass too fast .
i cant react .
its been the 3rd week already .
and i just realised .
it seems to me that the time had been passing like the speed of light .
too exaggerating . but its true .
been gaming this few weeks .
swiping dragging fastshotting .
so many things .
now i just realised.
how friends are so important .
=)) money doesnt matter .
its the brotherhood thats matters .

anyways .
how am i going to school now . late for an hour . gosh .-.-
i wanna die man .
yesterday was too fast.
my head was swirling .
stomach was killing me .
poa was abit slacking .
as we wasnt concentratng much .
but we learnt a new skill .
not a bad skill .
call categorising .
x0
whee .
quite effective i guess .
important in poa . so we do not have so much burden .
i shall stop now . anyways. happy holidays . 3 months to prelim .
x))))

2006-01-24T21:03:00.000+08:00

hmmx. so long never blog le. guess its time to blog bahh. hahahhaa. homework still stacking alot bahh. but slowly clearing and clearing. headache. >.<" sibei jialat nowadays. maybe the maths im doing. i cant rush things nowadays. headache and dizzy gets on so irritating. >.<

bleahh. nowadays m y temper is damn bad. thought about lots of things le. im being a good guy. a kind guy. but nobody knows the problem i have. wth. am i so easily builled and taken advantage. wtf. screwed off and whatsoever.

i have an attitude. i know. i never showed it to people only. and people think that im good to bully and whatsoever. once im really angry. life sux for u all. better dont make me angry. and nowadays the weather is so bad that its making me sleep. not about raining or what. its the place im sitting . . i think so. hack care also. now im concentrating on studies.

i just dont understand. if i dont talk. i seriously will sleep. what u want me do. tell me lahh. not i want to sleep de. when i get sianned all over. i confirm slp de. what can i do. this is what i cant control. what u want me do. i talk i get scolding. if i tell u teachers. would u even care or what? . . . u all just think that we are like slacking slacking. at the dark. we study like a mad ass. no matter how tired. im keeping myself awake. but until i cant stand it. i really needa talk. but i know the concentration will be gone. . .

hack care things. i dont know what to say now.
utterly off.
chinese new year is coming.
and im not feeling well.
common test is coming.
chem test is coming.
nyaa need to hand in. and i think i dont have enuf cip.
OH SHIt.
bleahh.
i dont know.
i dont wanna disappoint anybody bah. =)
nights. =/
i dont know what to say to u.
do i have hope.
i really dont think so.
after u wrote in that message.
im broken into pieces once again.

2006-01-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

gosh. its 2133 now. gosh lahz. i finish a maths but not emaths bah. GOSH. tomorrows a long day again. hope mr yao doesnt make us stay back once again. its super tiring now.. i guess i'll finish my homework after 11pm again. thats irritating for sure. =( sleeping sleeping sleeping. . .

yesterday slept at 0340 am. what a tiring day. before that. i went out with xiong. melissa. andy. and fabienne. hmmmx. ate quiet a lot of things. drank tiger and whatsoever. think i got write in my last blogging ba. hmmx.. then went andy's hse there ma. the multi purpose court. went there and have a rest.. then joyce reach my house there.. so went to fetch her lo. since she want to use computer and her shoe was at my house. =.="

hmmx. at first. i tot her parents were coming abt at 2+. so i wasnt that tired after all la. but . . my wireless mouse suddenly no battery.. then so pissed off lah. =.= no computer to use mah.. hmmx.. then joyce complained cuz her stomach is calling out.. >.< hungry. so i gave her a pot a chopstick and a bowl and she settled herself. i drank milk liaos. so dint eat. ^^ . hmmx. then so tiring lohz. waiting there and sitting facing the computer while the eyes is closing. so DOTS.

hmmx.. skip skip skip. . staring the computer with nothing to do. then her parents called . =) finally i get to slp. ^^ so sent her down then run back home to slp lahhhhhhhh. !

so this morning. woke up at noon. d0ts. was suppose to wake up in the morning to mop the house. but no choice lo. so ate my lunch le then began to do my work.. nowadays.. my stomach aches damn easily. i dont understand lahz. hope nothing happen bah. then finish work le.. rode my bicycle and went to interchange to get batteries. . >.< so many ppl siax today. buay tahan. and the weather seriously sucks. so hot. hot until i kept perspiring. bought blue coral ice blend. =) then went out le..

played a cs match. the team was like a fucking hacker team. i dint notice that the server had vac off. fuck lahz. or else i will say dont want de. cuz it totally sucks la. confirm got hacker de. pui them. fuck off.

hmmx. after that went bball lohz.. at blk 504. >.< tiring loh. after playing for abt 2 hours ++ . . then my cousin came and friend. LOL. they came quite late lahhz. then went to eat dinner with my friend.. talk about football as usual lah.=) madness. den jux reach home only. ^^

hope tomorrow's a good day.`
i believe in miracles`
i believe in u`
=)
i dont want to face the darkness already`
i need ur sunlight`
=).
waitingg. waitingg .

2006-01-15T02:05:00.000+08:00

g0sh. its 2am already. =) hahas. and im now blogging. what a strange guy i am. without doubts. =x hmmx.. this is so tiring.. Lolz. im bored. what to do. my maple is beginning to have problems. im pissing off by the problem that when i played it less than 50 seconds. it just shut off itself. im quitting maple. im sure. my computer has too much mmorpg le. >.< 160 gb lidat confirm very fast finish de.

nowadays always going out late in the night. think my parents not happy le. im not gonna say anything. im keeping quiet bah. i need my own time sometimes ba. =) hmmx.. think they are giving me some freedom le bahx.. im happy for this. thanks dad and mom. =)

hmmx.. >.<" lifes being pretty stress as usual lahz. homeworks stacking. tests coming. im failing my chemistry test. screwed cuz i dint learn. this is damn bad. i canot take it lahz. its like i kept forgetting to bring them to school to ask. guess sometimes im abit laggy. >.<"

sleeping in class. i cant change it lahz. its like. if the lesson is very sianned. not becuz of its content. but its the way they teach. its quite sianned bah. i dont want say anything more lah. in case some people sees it. then they go tell. LOL. =xxXx

ahhh. test in abt 3 weeks time ? i dont really have confidence. this common test shld be the report that determines my future. my confidence of whether to achieve my target. trying to rush for this year. but sometimes. i just felt extremely tired of it. =) tired of things around me.

i just hate to say the spoiler. spoiler. pissing me off lahz. i seriously dont wanna say much. come on. i dont know lahz. this is like. AHHH. LAME lahz. .l. really lo. i jux dont wanna interpret. =x if i interpret. i think the whole world will find u LAME. seriously. people own u a controller nias. u pester ppl like siaos. ppl go eat lunch got problem sia. its abit lame la. but really buay tahan lohz. what the hell is this. no comments. u think will controller very ex meh. fake one leh. >.<" pui. bleahs.

hope . hope . hope .
i need hope . ?
i dont know .
confused .
=.= " . . .
lemme decide on my own . . .
dont pressure me. . .
seriously. . .
i will become goner. . .

aI.sI.nI.=))

2006-01-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

omg. why is friendster so lag. so pekchek. i guess today im blogging all the shit things happening. im so irritated. even play games also got people taunt here and there. this is damn screwed up.

hmmx. starting . school wasnt that badd lahhhh.. hahha.. cuz d0ne all my homework. jux scared abt englishh. hmm.. i wrote 650 w0rds. i think excessively. repeated lines all over. but i made an effort alrite. pls dont scold me! Lolz. hmmx. wasnt a good day as my stomach is aching now and then. just dont understand whats going out in my body. pissed. very pissed. spoilt mood the whole day.

nvm la. this kinda thing i dont mind. but its like. my mood was alright when school's released. so its not that bad. so went to eat with andy and yizhao. so at first we took a bus. but andy had no change. then take taxi.. hmmx.. went to siglap there. went in to the coffeeshop which sells delicious food. - yummy- hahah. not a bad stall. very delicious. but costy. so bear the pain lo.. den after that slack around the 7-11.. hmmx.. den went home le..

come back home. on comp. played a match of dota. tio owned. x.x bth.. >.< den sibei dulan cuz got leaver ma.. den got matey afk.. play until like shit lidat.. so forget it.. so went to cs. was screwed too. cuz i got pawned prettly badly. until i also pekchek.. so relax a while .. chill chill.. then went back cs. found my cs friends and talked to them lo.. talk until abt 6plus then stop talking.. then continue to cs.. abit form was back. i could only say something. i was born a sniper. =) hahaha.. so forget abt it..

went to haf dinner. so nothing much really happen la.. come back cs again. then got one idiotic asshole.. i really canot stand him. " Do i know u in real life " _|_ go and die la. i know him in cs canot meh. whalan. then daos daos daos. until i really pissed off. i keep quiet all the while and rush. den until canot tahan then i come out. pekchek lo.

now got homework to do. unable to find my geo workbook. having problems with chem. tml is chemistry test. what the hell. vocabulary is done. and a maths i guess. homeworks are stacking. tml is until 320. nvm.. i will get used to it somedays..

=/
ending here. so tiring.
my head is swirling.
thank god i drank coffee.

=)
w0.ai.ni.`

2006-01-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

ahhh. this just kinda suck lah. i just dont haf feeling to do although im happy im laughing. deep inside me nowadays always lay a question. but i dont know the answer to it. im kinda emotional liaos. bleahs. sometimes thinking so much until my head also hurts. searching in the depths of the sea to find a solution to my answer. i dont know le.. just knew this few days its like this.

avoiding its not the solution. i felt embarassed when seeing u too. ahh. its not i dont want talk to u face to face sometimes. its i cant. i just cant bring myself to talk to u face to face. ahh. i wanted to talk to u so much sometimes. but so near. yet so far. i really cant bring myself to talk to u after that incident. =(

spoiler. words used. i hate people using stupid words on me. im pissed off with it too. its not funny. and i dont see people laughing either. stop laming around. i dont care about ur lameness already. its pissing me off. dont u think its abit stupid doing this. attract attention doesnt need to go until this extent ma. its like throwing away ur self esteem. you are DISGUSTING. utterly piss. always sae that i say u. come on lo. u nv say me ar? as if u dint alrite. i just dont want to mention any shit about u. its like so pissed off lo.

studies are now so important that im having problems with school life. i just suddenly cant cope with my studies as test are flowing around my days. remedials and whatsoever. life is getting tougher i guess. i haf no regrets either. i dont mind. my targets are still on. but now. seriously must study abit liaos. chem test. phy test. and whatsoever. tired le. chinese is adding presssure too. im seriously lack of oxygen for my life. =(

im trap with studies and love. i think i shall go for studies ba. hais. after thinking for so long. studies is important. but having someone beside u suporting u is alot better than u urself overcoming obstacles. but no choice. =/ i cant find the one. or rather i say i found my one. =) haha.. im serious. =x haha. talking crap cuz my head is blank. i think so. =/ hmmx..

my friends. thanks thanks for helping. i appreciate all of ur help. but some things couldnt be helped. and u all understand. =) thanks for being understandable. my best friends. =) all the best to u all and me. =) i appreciate having u all as my friends. =D

hmmx.. dont think too much sister.. =) need any help tell me ba. =) haha... its like everyone's having problem. haha..

ending here.
miracles do happen*
i believe in them*

2005-12-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. The time now is 2:54am.. im blogging now for the sake of blogging. haha.. hmmx.. i 3 days blog one time bah. i dont think will blog more than that. depends on my mood lohz. now got mood blog then blog ... hmmx... last few days i was doing nothing at home.. as usual.. playing cs.. warcraft.. and whatsoever game.. bought a ps2 game. Need for speed underground : Most wanted. A nice game though. hmm. its like GTA + NFS + etc. Not a bad game. Lamborghini. Maserati. POrsche. Mercedes. And what so ever was added in. Was like so shocked when i see them. haha.. not a bad game.

school's reopening.damn. haha. i dont mind either. but its the o'levels pushing me as hard as possible. im stressing for results. but i aint doing anything at all. hmmx. this few days i shall enjoy life to the fullest. haha.. =) my hair totallysuck alright. until now. 4 people has seen it from my class.. haha.. btw.. just knew abt whos my subject teachers and whatsoever. was like as usual. sianned. - n0 comments - hmmx. school's ready. i got my shoes. my bag. my books. my hair. and uniform. i dont know about my uniform. scaredd tooo small. wahaha. Lolz. =/

today went cycling with bear andy. met them at eight at changi mac. when i reached there. they were hungry like mad. at first. i wanted to go to east coas mac eat de. but they all hungry. so i pei them eat lohz. in case they hungry or whatever. hmmx.. after finishing eating.. we cycled to east coast park. xiong was like so behind us. we stil had to wait for him. but hes seat was not tight. so it always went up and the whole seat is pointing up. =D so reach ecp within 15mins or 1/2 hour.. cant remember how long.. then we cycled at the path near the sea. 9am if im correct. the weather was excellent. no sun. but theres fresh air. breeze. feels so good. so continue cycling to 7-11. went to get a drink and realised that bear's bicycle had something wrong. hmmx. so we went to find a rental shop that could repair his bike. after 5 minutes we found one and hes tire had to be tuned. thank god. or else we cant even continue to cycle. so we cycle towards suntec. ( was that far ) ahaha. it wasnt. =D but it was fun. andy was always the first as his bike is better than us. i tried catching up but it was totally vain. after i catch up he speeded across me again. hmmx. cycling halfway. bear's cap dropped. so we hack care abt him and speed all the way. in the end we waited for him quite long. >.<" so we reached the traffic light. thinking whether to go suntec a not. but bear said he was tired and we had no choice but to foloow him lohz. what a bugger. but nevermind. so we cycled towards katong mall.. then to parkway.. parked our bikes there.. went to cold storage to buy pepsi max. =D hmmx. then went up 2nd floor find a place to sit and rest. but after 5 mintues. the cleaner wanted to clean the place. so after we stand up. i stomach pain. so go do business.. hahaa.. =D after that. andy wanted to go cut hair. so we pei him go roxy there loh.. btw.. before we reach parkway. we were cycling in roxy square. Lolz. hmmx. so followed him to joemil. =D his favourite place to cut hair and had a haircut. then we walked back to the arcade at parkway and chiong virtual striker. 2nd time playing and i won. haha... andy was like losing like mad until he pekchek. haha.. =x hmmx. so played about 15mins or so.. went to bk and sit cuz melissa was coming. so sat there and chit chat until she came. hmmx..

andy and me felt extra there and wanted to leave. but the couples stopped us. hahaha. but in the end i and andy still left. and they went to have a stroll at parkway. hahaha. then me and andy rushed home.. but we tried a way.. but it was so damn long. aND THE SLOPE. between kembangan and bedok. i just hate that slope. my bike was like so useless that i almost roll backwards. so no choice walk up. then whole leg numb. =x but going down slope was different. it was better and comfortable. wahhaha. then in began to rain. stupid rain. thank god i reach bedok le. or else sure die. T.T - hmm. so andy went home and i went to collect my new specs. hmmx. so after that have been slacking on computer for so long. damn. hmmx. i still got household chores to do. this is bored. =.=" i needa sleep early. this post is long.

hmmx. pls confirmed abt bbq and chalet.
last minute cancelling it really screws us up.
so forget abt it. =D
how am i gonna spent my day this afternoon. =.=

2005-12-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

=D.Back From malaysia today. Hmmx. was a tiring day after all cuz i was in malaysia for 3 days. sorry guys that i cant celebrate with u all. but i celebrated with 50+ cousins and relatives. Is that cool? WahHax. Hmmx. Went back to smalaysia at x'mas eve. Was like so excited cuz everyone's going back. =D too long nv see them le. some doesnt have computer so its hard to communicate with them. hmmx. we were late at xmas eve. we were suppose to left house at noon. but we delayed until 1+. so in the end took a taxi to woodsland checkpoint. cuz dont want my uncle to wait for us. haha.. hmmx. was quite a long queue. hated to line up to get my passport done. =.=" was so stuffy and irritating. so after half an hour. the 4 of us got it done and went to meet my uncle.

My uncle fetched us and went to my grandma's house to change car with his friends.Was starving but had quite abit of food. So take the car went back muar.. hmm.. was like an hour's ride loh. so reach back muar at 6pm. hmmx. everybody was present. =D so happy so chat chat chat.. then the adults were busily doing the bbq thingys. so my dad and me set up the fire with fellows cousins. =D a very big occasion it is. =) fun! hmmx. so at first.. helped with the otahs and didnt even have a bite of anything. hmm. chicken wraps. PRAWNS. the prawns is damn big. GOD. XD so delicious too. hmm.simple but nice cuz the whole family was present. so. after that. played mahjongg with my cousins until midnight. Then my mum,me. and 2 cousins went to a HOTEL. an " EXCELLENT " hotel it is. Small like siaos. at first we squeezed in a King size bed. but after my dad arrived. we changed strategy. so we pulled down the matress and 6 ppl were able to sleep. but i was awoke all the while cuz i dont have a blanket. and im cold like mad. abt 6am. i woke up. unable to survive in this COLD room. so went out to have a walk. then cousins woke up so we have a walk in the pier. =D was quita mess. hmm. but at least the air is fresh. =) so about 8-9 ppl woke up.. so went to have our breakfast. =D wanton noodle. VERY VERY NICE. everytime i came back. sure eat de. cuz its soooo delicious. =D excellent noodles. =) so went back to my grandma's house.. then everyone was awake.. cuz abt 11am we had to pray for out grandfather. hmmx. buffet was offered. =D nice. quite a nice array of lunch. so after eating we begin gambling.. gambling.. gambling.. until 3 + we were still gambling.. lost abt $3.50 sing dollars. =.=" but i dont mind cuz so long nv gamble with them.. hmm.. so about 4pm..i immiediately go have a bath cuz there will be more than 20 ppl queuing up. so i rushed dere to have a bath first.. =D came out with a strange hairstyle that i cut before going back. dont know if its nice a not. =x u all school repoen then can see le.. =D

After changing to proper clothes. cuz we have to attend wedding dinner ma. =.=" bleahx. so wear until so nicee. go SHOPPING. =.="
hmmx. went shopping shopping. bought a BIG pouch. its quite cool lahz. then went for wedding dinner cuz we only haf 1 hr to shop. ==" hmm. thee wedding dinner.. my table.. =.=" all children. all of them too haolian. pia red wine. my one cousin the whole face become red LIKE SIAO. see liaos also wanna laugh. i drank. but not much effect has taken on me. i still drank 2 cups of Carlsberg. its stilll nothing. fun. =x all of them too haolian le. think can win me. i alcoholic de. =x hahaha. so after dinner went back.. GAMBLE again. buay tahan. but this time i dint play. all the small kids play like mad. all one time Rm$1. =.=" hardcore man. but i think all lose cuz the bridesgroom won all. =D HAHAHA. So i was like.. Omg.. thank god i dint play.. hahha. so played til abt 2am.. then our mattress was put on the living room.. then sleep..

Woke up at 8am. was asked to wash up. hmm. =D then went to eat assam fish. =D w00t. =D but we waited abt an hour bah. so irritating. =.=" was like so many ppl there loh. so eat until 10+am. =.=" went to took a bus back jb.. 2 hours ++. so tiring. my dad.me.mum.bro all slept. hmm. reached there about 2pm. =.=" so went shopping centre shop shop.. city square.. no mood lohz. cuz think too tired le. so went to eat pizza hut.. AHHAHA. CHEAP BODOH. =D damn nice having a pizza there. so quickly rush to the customs to get out of malaysia cuz damn tired. but kinda stuck in there for 15mins. But when we reach woodsland checkpoint. was like damn fast. hmm.. so reach home quite fast cuz i took 168 from woodlands. =D whahaha. end liaos. =.=" so tiring. now still got friends at my house. 2am liaos. LOL. nights. =x

2005-12-21T23:26:00.000+08:00

Time to blogg. =D Haha. Very long no blog liaos.. So Now im trying to blog a long one or maybe a short but brief de. =D Hmm.. This few days spending money like water lidat.. On arcade.. Shoes and whatsoever.. Haha.. These few days had let me think so much on things. =/ Hmmx. Like future? Relationships? And everything else lohz.. KingKong was nice. =D Watched that on Monday. Went to Marina Square to played bowling. So cheap cheap. =D 1.80 a game. My 3 cousins , my brother and i went. =D my so called " oldest " cousin present got the highest score. 177. =.=" Then it was my 2nd oldest cousin there. 144. Then my highest was like 123. =.="
The 2 younger cousin and brother wasnt as good as us. =x I mean their training are not as stable and accurate as us. After that went to buy our tix. The booth was like beside the alley niax. So rushed to get some good spots but in the end got the middle. =D not that bad haha. hmmx. went to bk eat cuz all gonna pok pok liaos. =x hmmx. the show was nice. =D anne. kingkong. and etc. it was a show full of excitement. mystery and love. the natives in a island call skull island is totally disgusting alright. they totally disgust me quite a bit. cuz they are too black alright. T-Rex vs Kingkong. Damn funny. The kingkong could push t-rex. and the chase was so humourous. =D kingkong finally died still. because to protect anne. hmmx. the sound effects is excellent wthout doubt. all the shoutings and roaring were louddd. until ears were gonna be burst. =x
seriously go watch it if u all can. =)
Next im gonna watch chronicals of nhania(forget spelling). heard its quita nice show too yea. maybe watching.. not sure lehhx.

hmmx.. fast forward until today.. cuz last few days were like so bored.. bball as usual. trying new pattern and jumping high. tore my thigh muscle and my knee abit pain. Shoulders pain and whatsoever. Hahhaa. So today getting off from bball. Ahhh. Today went tm to meet my bball friend and also partly to buy me shoes. bought a white shoe for school. reebok got sale sia. =D not a bad shoe after all. size 13. =D WaHahax. Giant leg. =/ after that went to haf a walk around and talking abt bball again.. hmmx.. then went cs with my friend and see him play maximum tune. all the proes were there. i dint dare go play cuz scared lose face. =D rather initial d than that loh. later my face all gone siax. scaryy.~
hmmx. d0nt ask s0 much about my personal messages guys. they are just fake and sometimes real. and nobody will know which is real and which is fake. =D
hahhaa.

l0vin u l0ts and l0ts. =D
but who are you?
im stil finding. =D
im 100% sure that any girls wont like me de. =X

2005-12-15T18:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Must type bigger liaos. Dont know if it will become big also. Lols. I blog today cuz im waiting for my files and nothing to do. So come blogger slack again. =p So pekchek siax today. I woke up quite early just to settle the fruits, tea and whatsoever things for my ancestors and my god. And it was like about 3hrs lohz. Tiring like mad. And yesterday dint sleep well too. Cuz keep thinking of my maple thingy. And today i haven even touch a single bit. Lazy train sometimes. Unless got friends pei me play also. =) Go in so quiet also abit sianx sianx de. So waiting for friends to jio me play loh. Nowadays back to my cs days. My friends. And whatsoever. Planned to cre8 a team leh. Anyone intrested to join a not. =) Inform me if you want. =/ I need a team after the O's bahh. Which is like one yr from now? Haha.. Got a few songs from bear.. Quite nice bah. =/ Anybody want also can ask from me. Hahaha. Trance songs. =/ 2 weeks left or less than 2 weeks bah. Sianned schools starting soon. No more holidays. Sometimes a holiday too long make ppl sianned to hell. But no holidays also abit diaos loh. Next year crucial year le. =/ Needa pia le bah. All my friends so hiong loh. =.= All starting to tuition a few a week loh. I twice nias. I dont want so many tuition. Also quite stressful. Keep pushing and u dont score good also abit depressed. Like that later kena illness sehh sia. =.=

Need to get a haircut. =/ My hair getting more and more grassy. Like mushroom le man. Need to haf a neat and cool haircut bahh. Getting new spectacles also. Or else i would have a hard time seeing things. Hahah. =/ I dont know why i love to make =/ <--- This sign. People say is kinda sian sian smiley leh. But i prefer this than others. =/ See. again. LOL. Basketball siaos. =/ Chiong bball every 2 days bah. Legs are gonna be broken. Street BBALL! =) Ending here. =/

2005-12-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

One colour blogging style. Hahaha. So boring lahh. So decided to blog for a while lohh. Hee. 5 days since the camp ended. So boring. Rotting at home for 5 days. My parents went overseas so only my bro and me at home. =) Missing the camp. Would rather stayed at the camp then staying at home. Although the weather there was very incosistent and whatsoever. Its still better than rotting at home. Lol. Anyway. Knew a few new friends from sec 2. I think i too antisocial le. Always talk to sec 3 peeps only. Dint know sec 2 peeps got friendly de. Cuz all so.. attp mahh.. thats what i meant.. no offend hor.. but just realised they were kind lohh. hahhaa. my first few friends. =) some of them maple somemore. Lols.

2 days agoo.. went to parkway with my cuzzies. Lol. all the small kid there looking around. i mean us lohh. i no money only and was carrying only one note mahh. saving money in process. =) but went arcade and played my first match. Virtual Striker. LOL. won two lohh. then quite a few people stun cuz i first time playin. Then they see me play until like that. Hahahha! At first wanted to eat at fast food de. My cousin they all dont want lohh. So in the end went food court slack and eat before going to ecp meeting at my cuzzie de gf. After eating. We were like madd or something lohh. Run here and there because bo liaos. So throw face sia. Hahhaa. Then walked to ecp.. At first want to ps my small cousin.. When we reach ecp. We ran! Then we kept running and running. But we too slow le bah maybe. Cuz just finish eating.. =/ In the end he still catch up. Diaos. Then walk to the stone there and haf a rest.. So many " xiao qiang " there lohh. Was playin my psp on there then my cousin keep shouting " xiao qiang " !! Then was like so diaos. there ggot a lot of people that time loh. so malu. 4 boys scared of cockroach. =.= abit lose face lohh. so sit there then went to mac and slack and to wait lohh. then andy weijie called. asked whether to meet they two a not. just then. we sat there so long le. then realised my cuzzie de gf went home liao. then so pekchek loh. sit there do nothing leh then no choice.. met andy and weijie.. then decided to come my house slack loh. so they began playin and playin until abt 5+am.. then sleep lohh. =.=" tiring shit. then went out to tm.. bought a billabong pencil box. ear stud. and 10 dollars worth of pens.. gonna be broke liaos. =) next thing gonna buy WALLET. =) my wallet use for a few months only. but the texture coming out liaos.

Hmm.. Fruitcake having outing? Pls notify me lohh. i dont know anything one. =.=
Tired tired =)
Nights!
I need to have a good rest.
Cuz i just came back from Swensens. =)
Went to fetch parents. =)
4 Days sleep less than 24 hours.
Blogging d0nt kn0w at when liaos. =/

2005-12-09T16:24:00.000+08:00

Back from camp!! =)

3 days 2 night camp at Kluang.
Sri Pandan Campsite.
Splitted into 4 tribes.
Dakota.Laguna.Moehawk.Mohigan.
Bleahh.
Same group with Andy weijie.
Was like kinda cant wait for da camp.
But everything was wrong loh.
Hahaha.
Reached the campsite.
Was pitching our camp bahh.
We got a 6-Man tent for the 3 of us.
But.
We took a WRONG ROD.
Diaos.
Then in the end canot pitch loh.
Diaos.
=="
No choice as time was tight.
Then went to kept our bags with the other tent.
then went for trekking.
Never expect this trekking to be so FUN.
Was such a fruitful experience.
When we were climbing up the hill.
=/
It just suddenly rained.
Diaos.
Then u can see " milo " flowing down.
Diaos.
Hahahha.
Then no umbrella.
Wet wet wet.
Then no choice had to climb slowly down.
But was slippery.
Dangerous.
So the boys have to do our part.
All stationed at one place to help the girls.
Then slowly slowly do lohh.
Hahha. thank god nothing happened too. =)

Everybody went back with a tiring look on their face.
The scenery was excellent.
Just love them.
Left side was the sunset.
Right side was the rainbow at first.
Then i saw an illusion of a city.
Eternity.
So...
Nice.
Staring blankly to the space i saw.
And suddenly i slept.
A tiring first dae.
And an antisocial day for me.
=pPp

Tired.Tired.
At night was the worse.
We set the tent at 7pm.
After we set it.
We realised the tent was spoilt.
Then changed one.
Then the SAME thing happen.
Pissed.
In the end we were abit late for our dinner.
Had dinner.
And we are all gathered in our respective tribes.
Played games.
Introduction games i guess.
Hmm.
Thats how everyone knew each other bah.

Then after that.
Have to set up my tent again.
With an instructor.
We began doing it at 11PM.
Then.
THE TENT HAS PROBLEM.
We did 3-4 times.
All zip spoil.
Ultra ultra pissed off.
Then no choice.
We have to stick to it loh.
And a 8-Man tent we stayed in.
7 people and bags.
The tent become EXTREMELY stuffy.
Hot hot hot.
But because of tiring.
I slept first.
Was awaken by SNORES of people like..
Shall not sayy.
Forget it.
Hahhaa.
Wake up at 6.30am.
Was abit late i guess.
Then rushed to have clean up.
Then have to wear shoes for PT.
DAMN pekchek.
I wasnt late loh.
Also tio scolding.
Then the instructor scold scold scold.
Lol.
Pump like mad.
Hand on the rock very long.
Then in the end got blue-black.
Pain PAIN PAIN!!
Then we had lunch.
Then got activites.
Navigation And Survivor.
Navigation was okays.
Not that bad.
Our teamwork was excellent.
Maybe our luck is good bahh. =)
Lol.
19/20. =)

Then the survivor.
SO MALU SIA.
Making me until so malu. Pekchek.
Si Simon.
Always like that.
Bias again me sia.
Always scold me.
=.=

Nevermind.
That one was quite a fruitful experience.
Teach us how to save ourselves in a deserted island.

Next was lunch.
THEN CANOEING.
DIAOS.
Anthony the instructor.
Excellent mind gamer.
Tricks u ultra well de.
Always says things and tricks u.
ULTRA PRO.
Hands down*

Canoeing was quite a bad one.
Sun burnt like siao.
No comments liaos.
Now worse than Indian. =.="
Hahahha.

NO CAMPFIRE.
WTH.
Was a disappointment.
But got a lot of things to share.
Our cheer was good?
Performance WAS A TOTAL SUCESS.
TOTALLY A COMEDY MAN.
=pPp
Everybody laugh until *PeNgZ*
Even instructor themselves also LAUGH.
WHOOHOO!
My first time being a clown bahh i guess. =pPp
Heng nv tio thrown out of tent.
Sleep at the wildness.
Because raining heavily.
Tents flooded.
Lmao.
Then evacuated and went to the instructor's room to sleep.
Bugs all around.
But no choice.
Just slept lohh.

Next day. Was awaken by the instructor.
Not a bad sleep.
but just too little sleep i guess.
Cuz because of canoeing and watsoever..
Clean up and packed bags.
Went down to clear our tents and give them back.
Tiring process.
Because we were running up the HILL.
Our legs nv strengthen i think also fake.
Walk up and down a steep hill.
Lol.
=)
Went fun and whatsoever.
Btw.
Watched Chicken Little.
Abit boring i guess.
Because of the atomsphere there.
All tired like siaos.
Our supper.
RABBIT BURGER.
WTH LOH.
At first dint believe it.
But the next day we went the rabbit farm.
And they told us they supply RABBIT MEAT.
OMG.
=.=
Digusting.
Low Calories.
=pPp

Overall this camp is quite good.
Not that bad at all.
=/ Missing the camp now.
All the good ol' times.
=/
Smile.
Hugs.
DAKOTA FOREVER*

2005-11-24T01:08:00.000+08:00

Suddenly have the mood to blog.
This blog is extremely dead.
Sorry guys.
=/
I knew u all aint here anymore.
Cuz i dint post.
Just felt extremely strange today.

Time passes so fast.
2 weeks or 3 weeks have passed by.
So many things have happen.
I just cant keep so many things.
Just spat them out here loh.
Went to my p6 chalet.
My teacher rented a 4 room chalet.
Was spacious of course.
Was the first few to reach also.
Sharing the chalet with a group of later batch.
All were AHS student.
Stood so lowly there.
Cuz we aint any good schools.
Hmm.
Was quite fun at the first place.
Was like going around the chalet and looking around.
Then while going to the beach.
Saw a arcade there.
went in and play.
Dint spend any cash there. LOL.
Then friends began to come.
More and more came.
So decided to swim lohh.
Swim for quite long bah.
About 2-3 hours.
Then went to help making the fire.
Was like raining or wad.
We were dripping and dripping.
Lol.
Played with the fire.
So fun.
Then after setting the fire.
Went jacuzzi.
Saw something disgusting i guess.
Think so.
My friend told me.
Shall not interpret.
Abit *yellow*
Hmm.
Went to play the slides.
Was like the one in wild wild wet.
But mini version.
The chalet was awesome.
Just simply awesome.
Swam around until 10pm.
Decided to stop.
Friends leaving mahh.
Then the later batch occupy-
the whole living room.
No comments.
So we went to send friends.
And also go buy mac.
Lol.
Walked back.
Began to play Cheat.
Play until 2am.
Lmao.
2am we realised theres a empty space.
And theres a hopscotch there.
So began playin lohh.
Play until 3.40am.
Then we wantedd to say ghost stories.
At 4am.
3/4 slept liaos.
So left a few of us.
Decided to play bridge.
I dont know how at first.
After looking at a few rounds.
Tried my first time.
Then addicted liaos.
From 4am played until 8am.
Everybody woke up.
Then went mac have breakfast.
Then at mac we still played.
LOL.
Go until where.
Play until where.
Lmaos.
Played until we were going home.
Actually went bowling.
One round 4.90.
Siaos.
Dont no choice go home.
Totally dead in the bus.
=)
Just love this chalet.
So meaningful.
I miss it last yr.
And this yr i enjoyed well.
6/2 '02 Forever!=)
=D

Hahaha. One Day one night nia.
I write so long.
Lols.
Hmm.
Nothing happen as usual.
Some jokes.
Doh.
Still got things unsettled in my mind.
Lacking of communication.
Or we are hack caring.
I dont know.
I dont wanna message u.
Cuz i always msg at the wrong time.
My timing totally wrong.
Bleah.
Dont wanna talk about it.
So confused about love.
Shall not talk about love anymore.
Dont want too.
talk about it.
I felt so unsettled.

2005-11-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm.
Nice Day Toddayy..
=)
Went to Suntec t0 support our school.
A lot of people went.
Really a lot.
We occupied more than 1/3 of the SEATS.
LOL.
Our school did well.
*Cheers*
Heard tomorrow still have?
Lol.

WCG is starting tomorrow.
All the professionals.
When i was on the way to Suntec.
Saw a lot of foreigners.
With the WCG clothes..
Oh My.
How i Wish One Day i Could Join.
=/
Im still so noob.
An average cs player.
But when u step in the arena.
You felt so...
Honourable.
Proud.
Happy.
Excited.
Fun.

Heard something that I NEVER.
EVER.
Want to hear.
I hate this.
I hate myself.
I hate my confidence.
I hate my logic.
I hate everything.
Broken.
Really shattered.
Dont want to talk about it.
Neither will i tell anyone.
=)
Haha.
If anyone asked.
Thanks for ur concern.
=/

Holidays is coming.
And going very fast.
3 weeks gonna be gone soon.
Very fast.
I cant see.
Wad i did in this hols.
Come on.
I dint do anything.
Tomorrow is bball day.
Brothers.
Bball TimE!

First time with a hairstyle i made myself.
Not that bad.
But very gangster.
Front spike.
Back spike.
I dint even trim my hair.
And it was so nice.
=)
Thank god didnt dye hair.
Or i will die earlier.
Lol.

Went arcade and spent more than 10++.
Dd0txx.
Play initial d until siao.
Lol.
Bear still better than me lol.
Played all sorts of games.

We were at there for abt..
2 hrs?
Or maybe more.
Lol.
After that went out to the playground.
Was so identical to the Kenneth Lim's hse de.
LOL.
Sat at there.
Have a good breathe of fresh air.
And relax.

Behind things.
I shall not say.
We went dinner.!
Lol.
And now im blogging..
After 2 Cs Matches.
2hrs +++
Lol.
Power.
nights!
bball rocks.

2005-11-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

Confused.
Very confused.
Why is life suddenly like that.
Im becoming bored of life.
I dont feel like going for extra lessons.
Lols.
My head hurts.
Everyday 1am-2am sleep.
Wake up 7am-8am
How to survive.
No comments.
Power lohh.
No wonder now i sick.
hahaha.

Two more days.
Joyce ar.
Your bdae.
Yet i haven buy anything.
No mood to go out.
Goshh.
What am i gonna do.
Headache.
Soar Throat.
Flu.
Hais.
=/

Obsessed with maple.
Maple maple maple.
Where r u all?
Im so bored.
Lols.
Im using maple.
As an excuse.
To avoid everything.
Lol.
No comments.

My life's been changing.
Things doesnt go well nowadsy.
Friendship.
Man.
Why do u all always haf to be like that.
Im so stressed alright.
I dont know how to help too.
you all making me die.
Suffocated.
pain.
u all understand?
doubt so.

hais.
no mood le.
until here only.
haven collect report book.
Lols. =)

2005-11-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Moodless.
Stupid Damien.
I said sorry alright.
I dint meant to hit you.
I wasnt suppose to hit you.
I wanted to hit other provinces.
But i just dint know i attacked you.
And just u shut me off.
Bleah.
Fine.
Pui.

One whole week never blog.
And people scolding me saying i dint blog.
Guess this whole week.
I got to know quite a few new friends.
And things happened.
Bleah.
No mood to go school sia.
Haven even go take my report book.
Im waiting for them to call my parents.
I guess its kinda weak i guess.
Thats what i think also.
Dont want think so much liaox.
Confirm class position 3o+ de.

Bought a new computer.
3.2Ghz.
160Gb.
1Gb Ram.
Can record Tv Programs.
=)
128Mb PciE. Graphic Card.
LOLs.
19 Inch Wide Screen LCD.
WaHahaha.
2299.
Expensive loh.
My dad just bought for me.
I almost burst into tears.
Whenever i wanted to buy things.
He dint really allowed.
Then suddenly.
Yesterday he asked me to go with him to choose comp.
=)
Very touched.
I promised him to pay him 587.
=)
Next year bah.

Tomorrow.
A maths.
Chem.
Ss.
Damnnit.
Dont even feel like going.
Cuz tml my comp coming.
=)
New comp.
New life.
=)
I miss all of you man.
=)

Just felt so strange.
Where are u?
Why dint u message me?
Why aint u online?
Did u went to have a hols?
LOL.
U suddenly became out of reach
Strange.
Miss ya man.
=)
But messaging to Brunei is ex.
=)

Stupidified me.
Stranged me.
Nowadays like having depression.
Depression is bad for health.
Just saw on the tv.
Lols.

My computer is fixed by me!
Thanks kaiwen.
=)
Just cleaned the gfx card.
Then everything is alright.
Thanks brother.
=/

Sec3.
This life.
The year our FUTURE is appearing.
But its also the year when bgr really starts.
Everybody stranded with their family problems also.
Sec3.
People yearn for more freedom.
Quarrels often started because of this.
Overspending on things too.
=/
Guess i became thrifty suddenly.
Keeping money for my own things nowadays.
=)

Jay's Cd is nice.
Ye Que is so like Yi Fu Zhi Ming.
The tempo.
So nice.
=)
w00t.
Not a bad cd after all.

Ge Dou Tian Wang has ended.
Finally.
A very sad serials.
Love Love Love.
Stranded here and there.
Sacrificing everything for their loved ones.
Seeing them happy will make them happy.
No matter what.
They dont care.
They just hated to see the loved one sads.
Even sacrificing one's life.
Its unstoppable.
The love.
The soul of a fighter.
Without the soul.
The fighter cant do anything.
A real champion had sould suportinng.
Hmm.
Just love this show.
Sad.
Agony.
Touched.
Depression.
Happy.
Hilarious.
Romantic.
Everythin in this show.

This show let me understand so many things.
=)
Hahaha.
Guess im stopping here.
just changed mouse.
My new comp wireless keyboard and mouse.
I need to setup my old comp first.
Ciaoz.

2005-10-27T19:22:00.000+08:00

very moodless today.
dont know why.
shall not post much.
i dint know the reason.
i dont want to know the reason.
are you dropping?
no.
i dont think so.
my problem.
nobody can settle.
i dont want to share out my burdens.
im so sick of it.
why is my life abit like this.
nevermind.
im used to this bah.
i dont want to see but i kept seeing.
not happy but cant do anything.
im so bloody confused.
things happening to me is strange.
im getting abit step le.
i dont want.
forget it.
not dying hair not piercing.
i want back the old me.
is stress pushing me hard?
i dont know.

people said i blog short.
shall blog long now.
hmm.
what i can do now?
i hated to avoid.
nothing i could do to talk to u.
i just cant talk to u.
im afraid.
very afraid things cropped up.
i usually dared to talk to u.
why because of now.
i cant.
i dunno.
dont want to think anymore.
i think now.
i think later.
it will still be the same.
im sick of this.
i everyday think so much.
acting nothing inside me.
act like i enjoyed life.
act like nothing happen.

mr kamath told me.
my attitude has to change.
i will change.
i promise.
next year will be different i guess.
now i dont strive.
i will strive next year.

temperature taking tml.
yc's chalet?
i dont know.
am i invited?
im still curious?
Lolz.
hope i can go too.
nights.
dont want post le.=/

2005-10-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

2005-10-24T20:11:00.000+08:00

2005-10-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
Since got people ask me post.
I shall post a very long one bah.
Since i've not updated it for so long.
Firstly.
I shall talk about yesterday. =)

What to start?
I went chalet yesterdae.
Knew quite a lot of people le.
Lolz.
I thought I was an extra there.
Cuz they were all their relatives.
But they treated me as one of them.
=)
Touched.
Thank You so much for the food.
Ate quite a lot yesterdae.
Even though i was sick yesterdae.
But seriously thanks for the food yesterdae.
Happy Birthday Clement.
25 already.
=/

Now.
Its about me and you.
You wanted me to treat you more importantly.
But do u think i can?
Its like.
I wanted to talk to you.
But looking afar laughing with your love.
I really no mood to talk to you.
I avoid you in real life.
I admit.
But so?
Every second now and then im bleeding.
I not trying to say that im leaving u or wad.
Its just that my presence may spoil the whole thing.
I dont wanna ruin your relationship.
Just like last time.
Just because i msg u a lot.
People get jealous and quarreled with you.
I really hated that.
Even though im hurt.
I still tried to help you.
Come on.

That time u stead with someone.
That was the worse time in my LIFE.
This time.
I really admit defeat already.
He's definitely better than me.
Irregardless of attitude and manners.
Too much things.
Hes better than me.

Memories flowed.
Every single relationship when u met a problem.
I was in the phone with you.
Solving problems.
Your tears drop and drop.
Always sad.
I just hope now you wouldnt have any problem.
Heh.

Hmm.
Heard that my whole class passed english.
Thats a relieve.
At least theres a load off my mind.
But theres still more man.
I got so many problems to think.
Now my head hurts.
My nose hurts.
Im sick alright.
So i definitelty looked abit restless.
I've to rest le.
Nights.
=)

2005-10-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

A Very bad day today.
No comments.
So bloody sick.
When i woke up today.
My stomach hurt like mad.
Kept going to the toilet.
Non-Stop.
5hours.
I took 4 hours+ to win it.
By vomiting out all the things inside my stomach.
And partly due to my brain.
Im tired.
12 hours in 2 days.
Madd k.
I slept only 12 hours.
Got a bad headache too.
But thank god i rested for a while.
Or else i cant do any household chores man.
Broken to pieces.

Did my household chores.
Burning joss paper.
Lolz.
So tiring.
As my headache was serious.
It was worse.
I couldnt see things properly.
Bloody headache.
I felt that i almost fainted man.
=.="

After burning finish.
Changed clothes and was planning to collect my psp.
Thank god i still got my dad.
Or else i scaredd later i faint when i was on my way.
Cuz my headache makes me feel so giddy..
All my friends fly aeroplane sia.
All go play soccer.
But nevermind.
Tml den go watch.
=/

Hmm.
Two more days left.
Going back school.
With such a fearful mind.
Nevermind.
I shall not write about it.
Or else it will become like a sad post once again.
=/
Nights. =)

time of fear-

2005-10-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

Fear inside my heart.
Im afraid that i cant get promoted.
Very scared.
Wat is this.
Im trying my hard.
Hope I get a push.
Please.
=/
I did my best.

I dont want to lose my friends.
I want to be with you all.
I admit this year im worse than last year.
Things happen.
Feelings up and down.
What the hell.
Slacking too much in the first half year.
Although i've realised that it was all too late.
i still study.
I dont give up hope.
Pls.
=/
I dont wanna drop.

I've finally accept the fact that u all are couples already.
after today.
I really have to accept le.
Hand to hand.
=)
Romantic!
=/
I guess this may be it bah.
=/
hahaha.
Cycling cycling.
Nice.
Enjoyed being with u guys,.
Smile.
Nights.
Dont want to write so much.
Cuz things around me are happening.
=.=" Im so damn afraid.
Angry.
Happy.
Anxious.
Hais.

back to the time -

2005-10-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

Blogging for the last time for this week.
Mother gonna lock computer.
One week.
Finish everything.
End everything.
To me.
Im still so relaxed.
Tired.
I dont care much now.

Trying to cope myself.
Changed my blogskin back to the old one.
Since new one i can keep it first ba.
=)
A Maths is easy.
But im afraid of co-ordinate geo.
Stupid lahz.
I may skip that chapter.
No time to hesistate.
Tml Chinese and Ss Exams.
One straight week,.
7 Subjects all tested.
I canot afford to fail.
I screwed my english already.
Im afraid.
So afraid that i failed.
Sigh.

I dont know why.
I want to post happy things.
But all the things im posting.
Isnt happy at all.
I cant seemed to be happy.
Sick of this man.
I wanna be out of stress.
Its understandable for wad situation i face now.
I dont care much more now.
=/
Psychoing myself to study.
Tired.

Tripped.
Im back to the old me bah.
I dont wanna be xl.
Or wad.
Im sick of everything.
Nights.~

2005-10-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

Hahax.
Finally got da chance to use comp.
So decided to blog some things lor.
Since im not feeling good in the inside.
=(

Ever since exams coming.
I've been stressing myself to study.
I pushed myself to study.
Yet once and once.
I studied.
but not a lot.
When exams is tomorrow.
Real stress puts on u.
Heavy loads of pressure land on me.
I suddenly do not know what to do.
I couldn't react over things.
Im stress.
I admit.
because of English.
=(

My friends.
You all are my good friends.
I hated to see u all beating each other.
Fighting over a small matter.
I step out to help.
Salvage problems.
But cant u all think of my feelings.
Im being stressing myself.
Worrying wads gonna happen.
And u all dint even be thankful.
I know one had.
But the rest?
You all think its easy to settle things.
If u all were the one to settle.
Do u all have the ability.
Dammit lahz.
I cant put down all these instantly.
Dammit.
=(

Im not avoiding you.
Its really.
I cant blame anyone.
But fate.
You called me just when i just slept.
Everytime its lidat.
I dont know why.
I cant hear the ringtone.
Its loud.
But I cant.
Do you think i dont urge to talk to you.
I WANTED to talk to you so badly.
Nowadays i dont even dare to say anything.
Or even say HelL0.
2 days ago.
I didnt really sleep.
But.
Then I realise.
My handphone was off.
I can only ASSUME its fate.
I dont wannt say so much.
Hais.
If you think im avoiding you.
So be it le bahx.
Blame everything on me bahx.
I rather get all the blame kaes.
Nights.
Dinner time.
Im fat.
=.="

2005-09-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

Time to blog. =)
Hmm.
Not really a good day for me.
Things are happening bad for me i guess.
I hate people accusing people.
Yet in the end they did it.
Not me.
Extremely disappointing.
Shall not interpret more on this.
No comments.
=/

Sorry people.
Guess im using a bright colour now
So hard to see for me.
Such an eyesore man.
Dots.
=)
But at least its not that bad now right?
Hee.

Exams are around the corner.
Really left only 2 weeks le.
Preparing to give my best shot on every single exam.
=/
Tired.
Stress.
But im going on.
=)
I must see all my friends next year.
I aint wanna lose them.
But whenever i think of failing english.;
My heart began pumping fast.
Im tryin not to fail it.
If i pass my english.
Im gonna push my english all the way already.
Just hope everything is all right.
=/

Ooooh!
Tomorrow spotcheck for hair.
w0w.
=)
Everybody please remember to keep a proper grooming!
=/
Guess i may end now bah.
Cuz i cant use computer.
But im secretly using it now.
Nights!~

Everything will just be alright i guess.
Hope nothing could screw me.
Or found out me weak points to screw me up.
For goodness sake.
Friends are wad we have.
And we cant trust a friend too much.
Cuz you dint know when he/she will betray u.
Hmm..

2005-09-24T19:45:00.000+08:00

Friends. =)
Finally I Chose To Blog.
Cuz I Have The Mood TOday.
=/

Being tired of playing soccer just now.
I worsen my blister. =(
Its spreading cuz i continuing running.
I dont want to affect it but no choice.
Its for the teamspirit.
And my right leg just recovered.
Sorry guys.
I disappoint u all.

Yesterday.
Was a nice day.
8pm.
We were supposed to meet at Blk85 market.
But.
In the end.
Bear was at kopitiam waiting for people.
Andy was at home.
So i asked Andy to rush over.
Jj came my house.
He wanted to make his mp3.
o.O"
While we were making halfway.
Bear came with Melissa.
dots lor.
My house was like so messy.
Gosh.
And they just came in.
I was shocked to death for goodness sake.
So..
Andy called me.
And I went down with bear and melissa.
Jj dint want to go.
So we went down meet Andy.
Andy was stunned to see her.
Lolz.
=.="

So i and andy cycle.
Melissa and bear walk.
We cycle too fast and wanted to find them.
In the end.
They reached there earlier then us.
=.="
Found a seat there and bear began to think something.
=.="
oH my.
Stupid isnt it.
We were suppose to eat and he was guessing things.
Ordered 2 barbecued stingray.
Bear ate 1.
I and Andy shared.
Talking and eating at the same time.
We began to joke joke and joke.
We finished the thing.
And we still sat there.
=.="
Joking and joking.
Den suddenly i had stomachache.
=.="
Stupid sia.
Den make me go toilet lahz.
Came back.
Heard some bad news from bear.
Began discussing and thinking wad to do.
o.O"
In the end.
We dint thinkk of anything.
As Melissa dint eat anythign just now.
She wanted chicken wing.
So no choice.
We accompany her eat lor.
Dint know.
She had quite an appetite too.
While she asked us to eat.
She was still eating.
Hmm.
Never judge someone by its cover.
=)

After finish the wings.
We began to become bored.
So we used a plastic cup.
Add the chicken wing chilli sauce in.
And we realised it looks like CARROT juice.
Den add tissue in to make it more realistic.
Bear began playing with it.
So funny.
We took photos.
And video.
GOSH LOR.
So darn funny to the core.
Everybody laugh until throat also pain.
=)
We had fun.
Cheers!~

Andy came my house.
met Ken at void deck.
And realised something.
I went out for 3 hours.
=.="
I was supposed to go home by 9.
But i reach home at 12.
Lolz.
No comments.
So reach my house.
Played ps2.
Then my hp ringed.
Stupid shit.
Then my mother woke up.
And ask me to ask Andy and Ken go home.
Cuz tml got tuition.
So played the last round of game.
Everyone gathered in the room.
So darn funny.
Ken and Andy played wrestling.
Laugh until stomach gonna burst.

In the very end.
I tired until canot le.
Den i boom.
Den after that i dint know what happened.
But morning.
When i woke up.
Andy's sleeping posture just seemed so NICE.
Funny to the core.
When i woke up.
jj msg me if he cld come my house.
=/
I said anything and he came.
Played ps2 for a while again.
Then went to 58 market eat.
Eat le.
Everyone was suppposed to come my house study.
Hmm.
But my tuition dont allow.
Nvm bahx.
=)
Sianned to the core.
Thank god my teacher knew who is jiajun.
=)
Then he accompanied me til the end.
Den we played soccer lor.
Now.
Im saitting in front of comp lor.
=/

I just dont understand things.
I dont want to say anything.
We seemed to be alike.
but nowadays our communioncation is simple too little.
No comments.
Shall not say anything.
WE aint the same anymore bah.
Nights.

2005-09-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hmmph.
Changed my blogskin for fun.
Hais.
=)
Extremely tired this few days.
I dont know why.
Maybe too stress in school works bah.
=)

Oooh.
Homework piling like nobody's business.
I needa rush my homework le.
Geography.
Chinese.
LoLz.
=x
Chamx Bodoh.
Hmmph.

People asked me.
Vinc.
Aint you sad what had happen?
I smiled.
And told them.
Im alright.
=)

I got so many things to think about now.
I dunno what to say man.
Arghh.
Im in a middle of a war.
Im not helping either of them.
Cuz if i help either of them.
Its not a fair thing already.
=)
Im not caring so much already.
Im sick of messaging already.
=/
Lolz.
Wonder why
People cld mesage whole day.
but i just couldnt.
Lolz.

Everyday is like a party.
Everyone came my house play play play.
=)
Lolz.
Im tired already.
Maybe my house needa break too.
Hmm.
Lightning.
Rain.
Just now.
So nice.
I just love the weather.
=/

Dont want to type so long le.
Nights.
=)

2005-09-17T03:08:00.000+08:00

Blogging now.
Lolz.
3Am.
Sianned le.
So lai blog lor.
Andy and Ken at my house.
Playing ps2 now.
Lolz.
Damn diaos lor.

Today sucked to the core.
I just dont believe any shit anymore.
Lolz.
=/
I dint want to know.
And I already expected that answer to appear.
So no comments le.
I keep quiet.

Singing Competition.
Forget it lahz.
I suck man.
Sing until like shit lor.
But.
All of us tried our best!
Cheers*
No matter what the results ar.
WE ROCK!
=)
Bear.
Stop blaming urself.
You tried ur best.
And the mic is down once again.
=)

Im dejected?
Think quite a lot of people know le.
I dont want to know anyway.
But i think i know who.
But im not sure.
I dont really care lots.
I dont know what to do.
Ignore?
Avoid?
I dont know.
Forget it lahz.
I dont know what to do.
Or even react.
Fcuk Up Life.
I know le.

2005-09-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

Since got people asked me to blog.
Then i blog lor.
=/
Hmmph.
Bad day.
I dont like today at all.
My sensitive nose affect a lot of things.
Under stress.
Everything.
Disappointed.

Ken.Andy.YiZhao.Bear.Jj
Came my house.
While we went to go have our lunch.
Jj's shoe got hidden by the rest.
He went back to search
And met a crazy guy.
LOL.
He called me for help.
No choice lor.
Went back to help him.
Brothers.
=/
Went back.
He was scaredd like a mouse man.
LOL.
Helpedd him.
NO choice.
Found his shoe.
And i dint find the mad guy.
So went to meet up the rest.
Have our lunch and kept playing.
=/
Nothing muchh lahz.
Usual game.
WE played league.
Final.
Me and Yi Zhao.
Lolz.
Lost by penalty.
5-4.
Lolz.
Good game anyway.
So tiredd le.
Helped Joyce to download her -1.
Later helping other ppl find too.
Fcuking Irritated.
No choice.
Friends mah.

I Saw A Shadow Beside Me At First.
But.
It just Disappear Within My Sight Forever.
Izzit you?
=)
I dont dare dream much.
You are the shadow.
You are with me forever.
But not together.
You accompany me to walk the darkness path.
But not forever.
Izzit?

2005-09-10T01:42:00.000+08:00

Worry Worry Worry.
Lolz.
Nice day today.
Was very bored at home.
In the end.
Jj called me.
Asked if i wanted to go out.
So go out lor.
Gerald was asked out too.
We 3 wore Jeans out.
I hated Jeans.
Lolz.
Sianned.

Met at Tanah Merah Mrt.
Took MRT there.
Den Jj told us Mellisa they all was there.
Den I and Gerald was like..
Diaos?
For wad siax ask us go..
He told us he wanted to get a pair of wedding bear for his sister.
=)
Reached there.
Started shopping.
Was like going to precious thoughts first.
TM mahx.
Obvious that shop first.
Saw them.
$20.
Cheap.
=)
Cuz they rest of the shop we went later..
One for 69.90
Den one pair = 139.90
Lolz.
Too much money also not lidat spend.
Hahahha.

Went to the arcade as usual.
Played a few rounds of daytona.
Sianned.
=/
Keep playin that.
Im getting bored seriously.
Hahahaha.
No kick le.

Shop shop shop.
Saw a damn nice billadong hp strap.
$12.90
Considering to buy.
Savin money bah.
Not going to touch my two " blue " notes.
=)
That one..
For other purposes.
=/

Played "Hide and Seek".
Was ultra bo liaox.
Mellisa's group doesnt want us to find them.
Then we played it.
I was the proness" Lolz.
THey tell me where they are doing.
I know le.
=) We caught them.
Then,
They left.
We played again.
Sianned.
So bored.
Then in the end said all stop playing.
Then suddenly they say continue to play.
They were only above us.
=.="
They go out one shop.
My eyes caught them.
DumB.
Never ever mess with a " shAdOw. "

So.
Decided to went to Mac and haf a rest.
Rita left.
So left 2 of them came to us.
Sat down.
And Gerald's purpose of going was to buy clothes.
So we went back to search for the " CHOSEN " one.
They 2 girls got lobang.
So we follow lor.
In the end go " Surf And Ski. "
Dots.

Bear came as such a stupid time.
Come = Like never come lidat,.
So bo liaox.
He told me by 5 he will reach.
But he came at 6.
Diaos.
NO comments bodoh.
Hais.
I dont want say much.
=)

Hais.
I realised.
I dont dare to look at you when i talk to you.
But to other girls.
I dare.
Why.
Izzit because i have no more courage to go for it.
Or the confidence level is very low already.
Im confused.
Depressed.
Worried.

2005-09-09T00:37:00.000+08:00

Dont feel good.
Dont feel well.
Im sick.
Im feeling headache.
Im troubled.
Im confused.
Im guilty.
Im hurt.

Spent 10 bucks on taxi today.
Was late when i met joyce at the interchange.
We still took our own sweet time waiting for the bus.
We were later for 20 mins.
When we reach.
Everyone just left.
So no choice but to take taxi.
Just nice.
Mercedes Taxi.
=)
Wahahaax.
I calculated.
I estimated we were 3 mins late.
Think so bah.
=/

When we reach there.
They reached too.
Wore tie and register.
Went in to wait for event to start.
Was like so sianned.
Dreaming.
Listening to hp de songs.
=/
Got sweet.
Finish it within 15 minutes.
Very tired.
Was like blur blur.

Event started.
So sianned.
Starting the stupid speeches.
Almost fell asleep.
Den we were called to go down.
Lined up to receive price.
Tiredd.
My fringe long.
Was scaredd that the GOH not happy.
Lolz.
NO comments.

After everything.
REFRESHMENT.
All rush like mad arses.
=)
So nice siax drumsticks.
Rush a lot man.
=)
Den took a bus back school.
Went home.
Simple and easy.
=/
Andy came my house.
We played ps2.
Until 8.30pm.
Went down with him to eat dinner.
Nicee.
!!!

Why did u jus send me that.
Did i make u feel guilty or so?
I felt very bad.
Why.
You treat me bad.
You couldnt treat me good.
I can understand.
I couldnt bear to see u being sad.
You were so pissed off and angry when discussing things.
Hais.
Helpless me.
=(
Ending here.

5h4d0w5t4rZ.
Feeling extremely guilty.
Confused.
Hurt.
Running Away From Reality*

2005-09-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

Tiring day today.
Too long no blog man.
Its becoming cold already.
Lolz.
=)
Time to blog some things.

For Monday.
Got chemistry lesson.
Hmmph.
Woke up from my alarm as usual.
Receive call from Gerald.
Asking me to meet at Tanah Merah.
Hmmph.
Brought my Hp and mp3 along in case sianzations.
=/
Met him there.
Saw Nicholas Huang.
Then came along Jeric.
They was waiting for Kang Jie.
We was waiting for JiaJun.
We waited for 15 Minutes.
And both dint appear.
So we decided to start walking.
While walking saw 3C peeps walking to MRT.
Said hi to them and continue walking.
Reached the school.
Took the lift secretly.
=/
Hope we dont get caught.

Reach Music room.
Heard from peeps that Mr Sum gonna check.
All panicked like mad people.
Lolz.
In the end we dint care much.
And went for the lesson.
As usual.
Chemistry is the subject I love.
=)
I just love it.
I cant learn Physics as well as Chem bahx.
Thats why i want to be a chemist!
=/

After lesson.
A group of people.
2 group of boys one group of girls.
We went to tm.
Splitted into 3 Taxis.
=/
My group and Jeric's group gotten the taxi.
The girl was a bit later though.
=)
Went for a hair cut.
Now my hair is shorter cuz i trimmed.
But now can spike.
At least.
=)
I layered the back hair.
Hope its ok.
=/

Everything is back to normal.
I want a new hp.
=)
Now everything depends on my results.
I really wish to get it good.
Stress*
=/
New phone.. New phone!

Hmmph.
Resting resting resting.
I wanna rush studies.
My computer virus getting worse.
=(
I dont care le.
Now play play play.
I wanna GO OUT.
But dont know where to go.
Thats why im stucked at home.

Injured my toe.
Todays football was extremely rough.
Pushing.Pulling.Tripping.
What the hell.
The heat is so scorching that the friction caused my skin too burn.
Blood oozing out like mad.
Dammit.
I got a bruise on my right knee.
I dint have enough fun.
But the pain is killing me.
I could still run.
My speed is abit slow nowadays.
Lack of exercising.
Fat le lor.
Sianned.
=.="

Break me apart.
What should i do now.
Confused.*

2005-09-02T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hmmph.
Very Very Tired Now.
Had fun man.
=)
Bear brother.
=)
Had fun ehh.
Come my house = no worries.
Hahaha.
Something bad happens in school.
Why does two good friend quarrel for just a girl.
Hais.
I dint know what happen.
Dont wished to know either.
Hope they are already bah. =)
SmiLez.

I,Jj,Bear,Gerald.
Waited for taxi.
Stupid taxi.
We wait damn long man.
45 Mins.
We Jay walked all the way.
Dont even care.
Until just nice.
A taxi came.
And the rain just keep coming down.
Scarryyy.
Kinda cold.
Reached my house nearby.
Got down.
Went to a provision shop.
Running like madd.
Cuz its raining cats and dogs.
Went in the shop.
And just realised.
We were supposed to order pizza.
Den we just went in bought a few drinks.
Ran back to my house void deck.
So fun.
I love to play in the rain man.
Hahaha.
Reached my home.
On My Ps2.
My Comp.
Marathon once again.
LOL.
Jj socks is forever smelly.
=.="
Cant take it seriously.

After resting awhile.
Went to order pizza.
First called Pizza Hut.
They said that the delivery will be VERY slow.
Then in the end we called Canadian Pizza.
=)
Order an extra large and get another free.
=)
Nice.
Ordered Hawaiian and Chicken Fajitas.
We dint know it was damn big.
Until it was delivered to my house.
Everybody stunned.
But no choice.
Order le.
$34.90
Paid.
All began gorging the food.
So delicious.
Everyone was mad.
Cuz its like.
We dint eat for a month?
LOL.
Eat eat eat.
Eat le.
Finally get the energy.
Played soccer game in ps2.
Win Jj 4 straight games.
Win bear 1 game.
Dint play with Gerald.
Den we played Burnout.
We are like madd guys.
Laughing like crazy idiots.
Thank god nobody complained.
We screwed up the game lor.
Everybody knocked here and there.
Fun!
Den played my computer.
Our Cs Nick.
DAMN funny.
Can laugh until drop to floor.
" I aM bedOk taO kOh jiA jUn. aM i zaI? "
LMAO.
We were like laughing and playing.
Then changed nick to.
JiAjUn l0v3 MelLisA.
Lolz.
Den he whacked us up.
Fun!
jj was a borned noob in that game.
Even me. bear. gerald could kill.
except him.
He killed one.
We already kill 3 or 4 lor.
DIAO.

Played played played.
Laugh Laugh Laugh.
5.30 le.
All go home.
I finally can rest for a while.
So tiring ehh.

Changed my nick in msn.
Couldnt find a suitable one.
Guess this maybe the most suitable one bahx.
=)
Hahhaa.
MayBe tHe oNLy tHiNg I c4n d0 iS tO sEe u waLk aWaY-"
=)
This suit me the best.

I went into the finals for the singing comp.
Was quite stunned to death.
Blahx.
Then today we go see teacher.
Teacher sae still need to choose.
Diao.
I dunno wad song to choose.
I totally seriously no mood to sing.
Im totally disappointed with my studies.
I flunk my Chinese.
Heard from Jj.
I got 20/30 For Emaths.
My English.
60+
I dont care already.
Im stressed up enough.
I dunno why.
I just keep adding stress to myself.
My dad.
He dint really stress me.
Im pushing myself to a maximum that i have never reach.
That makes me so vulgar nowadays.
I dont want to scold.
I promised.
=)
Stopping here.
=)

2005-09-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

Hahx.
Today jusr rox0rz.
Morning.
Woke up.
And realised Pvp was down.
My mother called me.
And took my brother and me to mac.
Reached the mac.
dad was there.
One whole family easting breakfast.
Usually not free mahx all.
Den today everyone free.
After that my father allowed me go play arcade.
Went in and changed $2 credits.
Anyhow play play lor.
Since nothing to do mah.
Play finish.
Jj called me.
And asked if he cld come my house.
I said anything he really came.
Played for one and a half hours.
He left.
My dad msged me.
Ask me to go play bowling.
Hooray!!~~

Fetched us to Downtown bowling alley.
Quite a lot of people.
But we managed to get a lane.
Started playing.
My first round sucked totally.
I totally dont have the feel.
My second round too.
I felt that something really wrong inside me.
Got pissed.
In the end.
My 8th rack 53 points.
My 9th Strike.
My 10th 3 Consecutive strikes.
I was like.
Stunned.
First time get 4 In a round.
Was laughing out my ass.
Thrid round not that bad.
Managed to clinch at least 110.
Den Fourth too.
I got my feel back.
Its time to go play reguarly.
=)
Hahahax.

Now at home le.
Waiting to watch superstar.
Den gotta study le.
=)
Blog until here bahx.

Hmmph?
Someone backstabbed u.
Diaos.
Hais.
Everybody hypocrite one lahz.
Diaos.
I dont hate people for no certain reason.
SmiLez.
Hope kelly will win.
Not kelvin.
=/

Bring me away from the pain.
Can u do it?

2005-08-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

Quite a tiring day today.
Happy Teachers Day!
Cheers*
Woke up at 0730 today.
Omg.
I was late.
2 Years never late le.
If i Dint take the taxi.
I reach the school at 8am.
=.=" Diaos lor.
Wore my bball shoe to school.
Was supposed to wear the other kind of shoes.
I dint notice and i just wore it.
LoLz.

Hmmph.
Got pOa and chIneSe.
Diaos.
Go there do nothing.
Hahaha.
Was like talking non stop man.
=)
Bell ring le.
Went to hall and sit with brothers.
=)
Then they began their speech.
A very boring one.
Den Aces day finish.
Den we went do for GAMES.
Diaos.
My team.
all too SHORT.
Hahahha.
Screwed.
We lost 4-0
Think so bahx.
Not that bad lor.
Too long no play bah.

Chit chat with friends until 1125.
Went up to hall and have a rest.
Then next come the concert.
Quite nicee!
Rocks.!
Our energy seemed to be endless.
Shouted out until no voice lor.
Whee!!

Was supposed to go to kbox.
But i dint went.
I wasnt in a mood.
Dont know why.
Reason is unknown.
Took 10 With bear. jj. Gerald.
Went to Tampines to have a lunch.
What the hell.
Long John Silver.
So bz until siao.
Like shit lor.
Go until where.
Full until where.
We took just 1/2 hour to finish it.
Sianned.
Den we purposely slowly then finish the thing.
Make us wait so long.
After that went Century de Arcade.
Bear played Maxiumum Tune.
I.Gerald.Jj. Played Daytona. Time Crisis.
Im abit sick for arcade lahz.
After that.
Bear went to kbox le.
Jj wanted to go too.
But he dint go.
He kept sayin he had no money.
So no choice I canot abandoned him.
Den i jj gerald went back bedok lor.
Went i reach bedok inter.
Got a call from Sijie.
Asked if where i am.
Meet her to talk to her as too long nv see her.
Btw.
Saw Pschool friend shenny in tm.
Saw so many friend today sia.
=)
Hahaha.
I Gerald Jj went in valley play until sijie reached.
We played Daytona once again.
=)
Went out.
Saw Sijie.
And talked for a while.
Then I saw my brother!
Diao.
They go Mac.
I go home.
jj and gerald followed.
Hmmph.
Played like mad as usual.

Suddenly.
You asked me if i hate u.
I dunno why.
Are you under pressure.
Izzit.
Share with me ur problem.
Share with me ur burdens.
I dont mind at all.
Give me a break cuz i seriously do need.
Thoughts of avoiding u appeared.
=/
Just passed this.
And everything will be perfect.
I NEED to do it.
=)
Nights.
Its late already.
Tml den i use le.

2005-08-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

Hmmph.
Time to blog.
Everything sucks today.
Im so scaredd.
My English.
Everybody got 60+.
Stressed up.
My Science.
I stayed up to late to wait for someone.
And forget to study.
I scaredd I screwed up.
I just could remember things as much as poss.
=/
Hope just a A2 bah.
Hope.

Wow.
Mrs Kow came our class.
I was expecting a scolding.
But thank god she dint.
Cheers*
Seriously our class is out of control.
Why do i look at the teachers and got stared back.
I dint talk and stare teacher.
And they assume I did.
Said I dont like studies.
What is this.
Hais.
Guess this test.
Im owning it.
Or else no teacher would HELL believe.
That i studies.
Hais.

Seriously.
Im out of songs.
=)
Please send me some man.
Common test is over soon.
Im happy.
Im stressed free.
8th Sept.
NYAA award ceremony.
Must attend to get my things.
=/
Needa have a haircut too.
And also its time to have it lahz.
=/
I dint report today.
To take height and weight.
I almost late for school.
Guess tomorrow i'll go take.
Hope i dont gain weight.
=)

Screwed this.
Im attitudacious now.
=)
Im sick of people calling me this and that.
Its time.
To end things bahx.
Attitudacious. - Neat and Simple -
Homework done.
Now everything neat and tidy.
Im going for it.
=)
Wad course should i take.
I wanna take some course to upgrade.
Maybe tennis.
I just seemed to be in love with it.
But i dont know anything.
Or swimming?
Or TaeKwonDo.
Hmmph.
Maybe train myself up.
=/
Theres so many thing i can do now.
In life.
Everything just seemed to have a major change in me.
No more Mr bad boy.
Im changing.
Vuglar.
Im trying to keep myself off. =/
Hahaha.
Time for studies.
Tomorrow E maths.
tCz.
nights. =)

2005-08-27T23:26:00.000+08:00

Done.
One day blog two times.
Kinda my best for this whole month.
Woke up damn early.
Dint know why.
I everyday couldnt sleep long man.
Wake up.
Voice like shit still.
Still my throat theres alot of flam bah.
Diaos.
Running Nose.
Block Nose.
Flu.
=.="
Sibei Sianx.
Dint wanna blog this out now sibei sianned.
So i write out bahx.
=)
Stupid jj.
Sianned lahz.
Come my house at 12+.
I forgotten to do my household chores.
In the end.
When he went home.
I got tuition.
=.="
Today tuition nv do a lot.
Do one question for graph.
I must memerise the whole thing le.
=)
A1.
A1.
A1.
I must get it lahz.
So must go for it le.

Im sick of computer game sometimes.
But thats the only thing i could do.
Cs.
I play for 3 years already.
Im just an average player who does headshot and so on.
People ask me.
Arent u bored of it?
I also dunno how to answer.
Cs.
The only game to cure my hatred and rage.
=)
Hahaa.
Warcraft.
Worst.
I play until head dizzy still play.
I donno le!

Anyone got songs!!!
Im bored to death.
Sianned lahz.
I cant download.
I scaredd liaox.
I download abit 150++.
I abit scaredd le.
Later they gimme one letter.
Den i go knock wall.
=)
Ending here.
Quite bz talking on msn.
=)

2005-08-27T08:35:00.000+08:00

Blogging.
Yesterday my dad dunno wtf.
I wanted to use comp until late late.
And he blast me up.
Fcuk.
I wonder when can I use comp until late sia.
Stupid shit sia.
Pissed off lors.

I wrote a lot for social studies lor.
I dint even know whether correct a not.
Both of the paper.
I dont have confidence.
Cuz until now.
Im still a F9.
So seriously very no confidence.
Come on man!
Next week.
Im gonna pwn all my papers away.
Science. Emaths. Chinese.
Come on man.
My overall must at least 65%.
I must try.
I dont give any shit man.
Later I still got tuition.
RUSH RUSH RUSH.
Push myself to the limit and i can do it.

Was shocked when suddenly Ms Lim asked me out.
She handed me a paper.
And told me that I just need another 0.5kg.
And im out!
Whoohoo.
But i doubt it seriously.
Cuz thats quite long ago man.
About Aug start.
I go Taiwan that part.
Scaredd lor.
Hahaha.
Anyway exercise a lot is my priority too!
=)
Everything is not in a jumble now.
I wont let it run away now.
I wont let another destroy my puzzle now.

Hmmph.
People dare to admin they like who they like who.
Why you dont dare.
You always said that i actor.
But you were the worse.
I dare to admit I like her.
But you dare?
Actor.
Saw her then run run run.
Hey dude.
This is worst man.
Im not the actor.
Screw off.

I needa revise my graph le.
Nights.
=)
Hais.
Study Study Study!

2005-08-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

Everybody did well man!
Cheers!
Hahaha.
Wasnt a bad day.
I didnt eat my lunch.
Dont mind about it.
Studies important.
After tomorrow.
100% Must focus liaox.
Cant lose to Joa in maths man.
I must try my best.
Everybody good luck.
Today's English was hell of a hard.
I dont even have any confidence.
I wrote all my answers.
But was pondering over them.
Im seriously dead.
Hais.
Worrying here and there lor.
Very STRESS.

I've never been so stress before in my LIFE.
This is killing me man.
Im very scaredd about English.
I MUST pass this paper.
My final year too.
No more screwing up myself.
I MUST face everything now.
Everything obstacle I have.
Its for me to BREAK. BREAK. BREAK.

Singing Competition.
I know.
I was disappointed with myself.
I looked on the floor.
I just love looking on the floor.
I dint know why.
Lack of confidence as i was sick.
Den i became like that.
No stage fright.
My voice doesnt change that bad.
But the FLU can kill me.
Hais.
No FLU.
Maybe I wont die until so cham.
So pressurised when all sing until so nice.
=.="
Im lousy lahz.
To say the truth.
=)
Studying is Priority liaox bahx.

Its ok lahz.
I dont blame you.
If I could slap u.
I could have never done it.
I dunno why.
Something always stop me from doing.
I couldnt say anything.
U shut me off.
U make me speechless.
I dont mind.
Everything is worth it bahx.
=)
Smile girl.
Im not caring anything now.
Only studies.
=)
Hahaha!
Hmmph.
Fangs!
Father let u be First.
Because he thinks u r able to do the job!
Trust the father!
=)

Screwed.Screwed.SCREWED.

2005-08-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

Got screwed today.
Badly.
Feeling my anger from up to down.
Im seriously pissed.
When did i ever walk here and there?
I just remained at my place wad.
So izzit my fault?
You said it until we were " killers "
We destroyed lives.
What the hell.
Im disappointed.
I got " A1 ".
And that screws me up?
I handed in all my homework.
Come on lahz.
I never hand in?
Go see all the homework list lahz.
I never hand in.
- utterly rubbish -
Never got so pissed off.
You said so many craps.
Im totally shut off.
Talkin is illegal?
I seee u.
U see me.
I wasnt talking.
So everything is my fault.
Come on lahz.
Everything i leader?
Den might as well u dont teach.
I dont give any damn people who read this.
Im well pissed off and tired of this.
Its not i never study.
When i study.
People doesnt believe im studying.
What is this.
So >.<"
I keep quiet.
Everybody thinks that they knew me well.
Teachers esp.
They think they know me DAMN well.
F*** Off.

2005-08-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

Seriously out of points to blog.
I dont even have the mood to blog.
Im sick.
Damn sick.
Nothing could stop it man.
I need water.
I couldnt live without water.
Without water.
Its like im going to die.
Dammit.
Thursday is the audition.
Im sick and tired.
I slept 3 hrs yesterday.
Came to school with a mood to sleep only.
And my cough interrupt me.
Im so pissed off.
Im so fed up.

Im seriously suffering like a bloody ass.
I hate my illness.
I hate to see doctor.
I dont want to go school.
But i cant.
CA2 is round the corner.
Im freaking stressed about it.
I dont have enough breath to even walk.
I couldnt catch my own breathing.
Its like.
Why my life so tough.
Im tired to blog.
Seriously off le.

2005-08-20T07:42:00.000+08:00

Hmmph.
Didnt blog for very long time liaox.
Time to blog blog for a while already.
This week just happen too many things.
I myself really cant react over it.
Seriously.
I dont even know what song to sing.
Im sick.
I got soar throat.
How am i gonna sing.
How to get the -1.
Im damn sick until i dont even wanna sing.
Arghh.
Should be a lot of people going bahx.
With me or without me also the same bahx.

One more thing.
Hey dude.
I tried to help u.
I tried to give u a chance to explain to her.
Yet u keep telling me u dont know what to say.
Den what for u ask me whether to contact her.
My magic is so hard to perform k.
Keep sayin its getting worse.
Because u urself dont know how to explain.
Its not people dont give u a chance to explain.
And now u lidat.
"step" her lahz.
Stupid shit.

Thanks for gerald and jiajun.
Or i will get bored to death yesterday.
Went valley played a few rounds of daytona.
Had fun.
Den come my house.
I use comp.
They play ps2.
We all had fun.
Cheers*

My studies is killing me.
I know how to do maths.
But its hard for me to reason out everything.
Somemore the pace now is damn fast.
Circle theorem.
I know what to do.
But its like after you master.
Must do tys to let it remembered.
So stressed up liaox.
Somemore a maths beginning to make ppl confused.
Lolz.
Hope everything will be alright for me lor.
Hmmphh.
Just wake up.
Forget it lahz.
I go do my things le.

2005-08-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

Today just sucked.
I hated today.
Woke up with a heavy head.
My legs aching.
My back aching.
Dont even wanna go skl.
But no choice.
I just have to go school because of.
A'maths.
=)
Hmmph.
My mood not that good.
So i'll just use dark colour.
=/
Stupid chinese teacher.
Was replying Joyce letter.
Then she took it away.
Fuck bodoh.
Thank god.
She put it beside Melise de table.
Then Melise help me keep.
Thanks Melise.^
Ur the BEST.!
Hmmph.
After i got back the foolscap.
Dont even have the mood to write le.
At first.
I planned not to reply for a week.
Cuz i seriously having problem with things.
And now a lot of thing is bothering like shit.
Im tired.
Lack of sleep.
Trying not to sleep at all.
But social studies.
Ms Lian left early.
So i took a nap before going for my lunch break.
Tired out of walking.
My right leg.
Thigh muscle pulled.
Seriously in pain when i walk.
My back.
Not that serious liaox.
But yesterday was damn bad.
Hmmph.
Bought a new shoe.
DAMMIT.
Its kinda small man.
Size 11.>.<
Almost canot fit.
I forgotten that its 11.
And i just carried on buying it.
Diaos.
>.<
Its abit squeezy bah.
=)
Fucking 3 friend.
What kinda fren.
You all disappoint me lahz.
Fuckers.
Take taxi.
Argh.
Dont wanna mention.
I really damn fed up.
Hatred.
Anger.
Temper.
Guess 1 day.
I scared i couldnt control.
And beat up someone.
Like when im in sec1.
=.="
Think this whole week.
Ap all the way liaox.
Ps all.

2005-08-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

No mood.
Seriously not in the mood.
These few days werent my days.
Im damn tired.
Im damn angry.
Im damn sad.
I dunno.
Mixed Mixed Mixed.
Mixed until I myself dunno what im feeling now.
Hmmph.
Some things ought to be think throughout.
Friend.
Goodbye.
Guess bon voyage for u.
Hmmph.
Nothing much to type today.
Shall use only one colour.
Cuz im tired after street soccer competition.
Hated to push myself up to 100% effiency.
But i had to.
First match i attend i push myself.
And because of Friday's basketball match.
My stamina hasnt recovered yet.
Couldnt run as much as i normally run.
Disappointed.
=)
We tried our best.
Nice one guys.
Rage Rage Rage.
My rage built.
My hatred built.
Never ever can feel my kind eyes again.
Dont even pisss me off now.
Cuz i really dont wannt injure anyone.
-Ha+2eD-
People.
Stop saying i and her.
Its enough.
Im sick.
The more u all say.
The more i feel. >.<"
I feel very.
Haix.
I dont even dare to talk to her becuz of u all.
Say more lahz.
Hais.
NO mood le.