how much i want to tell you that i love you. (:

Y Tuesday, June 26, 2007

okays after nearly 2 mnths of mia-ing in blogs. time to blog la . .
this holiday rocks i think .
club 2 times only . :D
but theres lotsa sad things to be reminded of uh .

it starts at a camp at somewhere on sometime back ago .
he joined the camp with his friend and realised theres not a lot of people
from his school joining .
so he and his friend was splitted up .
he felt lonely and foreign as he does not know anyone .
everybody to him was a stranger.
the leaders talk to him and he tried to replied calmly .
in case if they feel that he is afraid or what .

the first day he was very quiet.
as he was a shy boy .
second day he became more energetic and trying to join in the pack .
third day was the last day .
he only got 2 friends with him .
2 new friends.
the rest he does not really talk to them .
'
but here comes the treasure hunt event .
he was split among his group into small groups .
one of the mission was to hold hands with a opposite sex.
he was lost.
he dont know who to find or who to hold .
just then .
he saw her .
she was alone .
he walked towards her and asked her .
you mind ?"
she said " no .
and they hold hands.
he did not know her existence til he saw her .
she look like a princess to him .
they had lots of fun .
in the end .
she ask for his number to keep as a friend .
he felt happy .

so he went home and messaged her .
and get to know her abit more .
he thought she was the same age as him .
but never did he expect that she was 1 yr older.
and 1 year older means her thinking is so much older too .
he wanted to give it a try.
he wanted to go for her .
maybe he is naive.
but he is trying his best to do it too .

so theres an event hosted at a place.
and he was in school collecting his o level certificate.
she called him asking whether if he is going .
he was wearing casual clothings without extra clothings.
he wanted to say no .
but after thinking he agreed and rushed down to meet her .
after meeting her he met two of her good friend .
so they were chatting so happily til reaching the destination .

they sticked with each other very closely .
even dinner they sat in a circle.
and had fun together.
discussing things.
and took the same transport home .

although he likes her .
but he does not express out .
he is scared because she might just ignore or reject him .
so he keep quiet and act calmly .
he does not want to let people know he likes her .

so he just agrees on whatever she is doing or what .
after a few weeks.
they met again .
and this time it was different.
she was very heartbroken because of some things .
he saw her cry .
but was aimless .
because he does not know what to do .
or how to console .
he is neither good in consoling nor comforting .
he felt helpless .
staring at her .
crying.
what he could do was giving her tissues.
he wants to hug her.
but he has no courage .
until now .
he still remembers the event clearly .
how heartbroken he was .
when he saw her cry.

he felt he got a chance at first.
but he threw it away again .
and until now .
he still .....
struggling .

end .
:D

anyways what a long story uh .:D
end here .
do homework time . =/

Nlyg.<3

12:15 AM

Y Tuesday, May 01, 2007

so tiring.
so damn tiring.

i wonder how i survived these few days.
mentally tired. but just refuses to lie down and sleep .
so these three days been cyclin !
seem to me like im heck caring things ya.
just feel down these few days.
=/

alright. cycled to ecp at 23:50 to meet up with andy and ben in bk .
so began to cycle to the jetty near pp underpass.
slacked dere and drank beer.
the wind dere was soooooo cold can .
but it r0cks .
at first it was really really cloudy .
but after a while .
it began to scatter. and stars appear !
so we sang wo ke yi .
then when the wind blow .
we sang feng.
kinda feel high .
and i miss ktv. but my voice isnt really improving.
i want back my voice seriously.
okays. so slacked there til 3++ and cycled home .

then i sms my new friend serene and chatted til about 4++ am .
ahhahah.
she taught me kinda lotsa things about life.
eg. live life as it is.
what for think so much ?
hmmmm . it can be controlled. =)
cant really remember le .
but thanks for de comfortation .
i felt lotsa better.

hmmm ,
so today .
woke up at noon sias.
jitao omg -.-
cuz i forget i meeting serene at 1.
den its like .
i forget scythians meeting 1 at bedok inter.
so i rush rush rush to parkway .
den scythians were still at bedok inter.
and serene was with her nafa friends.
so went to starbuck to drank a mocha frap and went arcade.
bored until bo bian . played initial d again lohs .
hmmmm. i got conned for bball .
i shot so many balls and scored but the score doesnt really update.
so pissed off i guess .

den i walked back to ntuc near parkway to meet serene .
and serene said she needa go home to put her things.
so i said alright and waited for her.
i think .. i wait damn long lah ! haha !
cuz i dint tell her that most of them had reach !
and i thought she knew .
den she rushed out and we went to meet scythians !
so most of them wanted rollerblading .
ahhahah . so i serene and one more guy call ., er forget le . ignatius or something ?
den we went to find wan,our gl . (:
so we were getting trick and moving here and there lahs .
so in the end we found out wan's real whereabout and rushed dere.
so when we rushed there.
they alrdy wanna go back le .
so we stayed on coz we can speed. so those who canot speed started their journey back again .
cool uh .
so we play daidee and heartattack.
laugh and laugh can .
so funny.
so played for 20 mins i guess.
and rushed back to the renting shop .
so it takes me about ... 20++ mins lahs.
i cant remember . speeding like mad .
i love speeding with my bike !
although its not that good.
but at least it can provide me with the speed i want i guess.
i love serene's bike !
damn cool .
and it cost 800 buxx.
wl .
how i wish i got her bike can . =/

so slacked there a while .
and here comes yisheng with his cold jokes.
den serene also COLD JOKES.
so its getting colder lohs .
so after that.
they planned to walk to pp lohs .
so serene was like going to her good friends house to keep her bike cuz ex mahs .
so accompanied her to go .
and then i cycled her to pp lohs .
haha!
she kept complaining about my cycling skills .
cuz i like always going to crash poles or something i guess.
but i dint la !
hmmm . so reach pp .
parked my bike .
and started walking ard.
went mph and she bought her things.
the magazine she bought is so cool can .
the decor . super swee .
woah .
i can imagine my house now lohs .
but its the drawing that matters.
alright. so we walk walk walk .
and she called dola !
ahahha . so she say we goonna eat at hawker centre.
so walked there lohs .=/
den met theem and had dinner. after dinner went to venezia icecream to have our icecream .
i dint know our gls all love icecream can .
the icecream is tasty too ! +D
alright.
then the cam-whores ruling the place ! =D
gl night ! =/

alright.
so wanted to find mountain and farhan.co-
but couldnt. so slack outside standard chartered bank ,
=/

so played game call ohmohm CHUCKY!
ahahhah . i dint kena hit cuz i dint play at the start.
ppl want sabo me canot sabo .
wahahahha¬

alright.
and it was time to go .
so cycled home in 20 mins or so ba .
cuz constant all the way .
tml school le .
i hate school now .
i guess.
=/

okays. really tired le .
nights.

yisheng i dont know whether shld i jiayou a not. ^^

Nlyg.<3

11:03 PM

Y Monday, April 30, 2007

lalalala.
what a tiring day today . l0ols .
wl .
really monday blues sias.
slept at 3am woke up at 7.30am .
totally shag can .
so waked up and packed my bag and planned to bring my laptop go. ^^

wl .
den realised. my bag is so damn bloody heavy .
so its like .
carrying gold to school .
not used to it .
blahs .
=/

okays.
so today first 2 hr tutorial iwd.
so its like .
they asked us to planned some crazy ideas sias.
den i just heck care and tell de lecturer.
eh. then shopping centre moving in the highway good a not .
den my team laugh like shit sias.
LOL .
=/

alright . then after that. all the way lectures.
irritating.
damn tiring can .
fed up with it .
so squeesy seat and cant concentrate.
so in the end take out lappie and play.
so bored also.
den when its emaths.
the lecturer suck to da max.
say so fast.
she thinks we yr 2 study sias.
even if got a maths foundation suddenly so chims one also
cmi lahs .
so fed up with teacher. i shouted " eh slower lehs"
den dont know why teacher angry . den i also not happy with her .
l0ols.

so after that. went to do my ckt hwk lohs .
then went home.
at first promised eric say that i wil go dinner .
but in the end my clique dint really go lohs .
so forget it le .
and also damn tired le .
so lying down at home like worm liddat. l0ls .

oh ya. had lunch with scythia people which ended up being separated lahs.
so in the end sat with eric also .
hmmm. so chatted abit and had our lunch lohs .

whee! tomorrow outing.
hope our clique all attending.
games games and more games.
i miss the old things when we laugh like mad. =/
<33s.

nights. damn tired le . long post everydaynow .

and oh ya. serene's song are all kinda oldies! LOL . =/

Nlyg.<3

11:23 PM

Y Sunday, April 29, 2007

hi and once again .
l0ols.
alright . its gonna be may1st soon .
shagg.

the stupid trial caused my whole body to ached quite badly.
totally lost the mood to go out or whatsoever .
was slacking and shagging to da max til about 4pm .
when kz called me and ask me whether if im available to play soccer.
so agreed and they came to my house and borrow bicycles from me ,
alright . so met at void deck and gave them a bike .
went to met ken . then andy .
so kinda slowly , we cycled to ecp lohs .
usual route. victoria. (=
so reached our destination ! the field.
so began to talk to sandeep cuz too long never talk to him .
hes like . hip now or what uh .
got one earhole .
mmm ..
so played with his friends lohs .
i performed like shit i guess.
muscling aching .
and my team still got some teamwork.
and thats kinda cool .
andy scored two.
and hes super high i think .
and i made my first sliding tackle in my life.
i never believe i will do it sias.
but its damn cool .alright .
it feels like , you are fallin down !

alright. so played about .. 1hr+++ .
then changed my shoe back and we cycled to mac.
ate mcflurry. and guess what.
i dint know andy got his mcflurry already .
den i still help him take.
LOL !
so its like .
we got 3 when we ordered 2 .
am i getting lucky ?
or this is my lucky month. and i've missed it alr .
omg . if really missed it . im gonna cry can .

alright . so after eating mcflurry was discussing where to go
to have our dinner .
after thinking damn long.
den we went to ecp de hawker lohs .
=/
i cycled damn fast i guess .
i dont know what was i doing .
and why the hell i will cycle so fast.
so i reached the wakeboarding place like 15 mins or so .
then they were spamming calls on me and ask me where am i .
so met up with them le .
went to the hawker.
very very packed can.
took kinda like 20 mins den can find place.
and the cleaner uncle still refuses to help us clear our table .
totally kinda pekchek lohs .
so we hands-on approach.
diy !
=D

so drank tiger beer with andy and its damn cooling .
maybe the previous weeks i've been kinda heaty.
so feel quite okays ! =D
so after that .
cycled home lohs . =DD

alright .
tml school .
i feel strange when i see u .
i dont know why.
is this infatuation ? hais.
sometimes. i think i thought too much for it .
maybe and just maybe.
we are just friends.
nites.

Nlyg.<3

10:51 PM

errr. hi ?
wow . so long since i blog again .
and now using my lappie to blog.
cool eh .
wahahhas.
= /

alright . got my lappie on friday .
been experimenting whats good and whats not good.
lolls.
alright .

firstly. im gonna say sorry to my friend serene.
made her rush to tp with a cab that cost 8 buxx.
lols.
den in the end,
i forget to tell her that we needa wear shoes.
omg.
den when she wore slippers. i know chams liaos.
haix.
i feel so bad lahs can.
she came less than 20 mins i think .
then she leave le.
she still smiled although .
but i feel very bad to the max.

okays . end =) canoeing trialing sucks to the max lahs can .
went for it .
kinda screwed i guess.
i couldnt even get thru the stamina station .
kinda sad.,
but i bo bian lahs .
=/
den went for a shower and went to kfc with adib shaf yusoff and andy .
so saw people that i dont like de. oops.
but i heck care lahs .
see liaos also sians .
alright .
den talk and learn some malay.
LOL.
adib mantat siOL .
i only know this one for now i guess.
alright .

den went back to bedok view de netball court for football .
met fellow ibt seniors i guess.
at the start.
only 12 ppl i gues.
den after that.
20++ people flooding the court.
was playing defender once again .
but kinda sad. i didnt perform well .
stupid knee. after running the trials all begin to hurt again .
so w/e can .

hmmm .. stopping now ..
im so confused over love now can . =/
stop asking me this and that.
im struggling .
although i know who i like now ,. (:

Nlyg.<3

1:04 AM

Y Thursday, April 26, 2007

okays. finally got time to blog laaaaaaaaaa..
wl. this few days totally shagged to da max lahs can.
my friends from design no school sia.
then the rest of the poly had school .
wl !
quite bad lahs.
dont want to say le .
so its like .
everyday 745am wake up .
830 take bus .
1pm released.
WAHHAHAHHA .

and thats for wed.thurs.fri .
everytime! =D
okays. mon is like 9-5. monday BLUES.
which i hate it damn alot.
den tuesday was 12-5.
so its quite alright for me .
just abit irregular laaa the timetable.
i think i'll be able to cope with it .
okays .
here come the bloody hell part.
lectures SUCK to the core man .
not interesting.
and lecturer doesnt put in effort to make it interesting .
i'll be sleeping if i dont hear my ipod for almost every lectures.
quite fed up with it alr.
its just that i dont want to bring my psp and play can .
=D
okays. so far so good.
lab was abit like shit .
breadboard and so on .
wl .
i see le head pain .
and the bloody teacher.
dont want to teach me the right way also .
everything go thru in class .
ask only go thru .
how to learn like this .
im enthu to learn but teachers seemed to heck care.
quite fed up with it .
dont make me pon school. ^^

alright. joined canoeing.
this sat trial .
doing my best .
i think .
im gonna go for all until i get my cert.
i just love canoeing ever since my sec4 nyaa camp .
^^

with much loves. =D
okays. tml lappie coming .

OMG I LOVE IT . =D

ending here. =)

Nlyg.<3

9:27 PM

Y Monday, April 16, 2007

ahhahs.
sorry for not typing out day2.
cuz went drinking and watching football with friends.
and so .
day2 :

hmmm .. woke up at 6.30..
when we need to fall at 7.20
its like .
cant sleep lah.
at night .
got people talkin about an emo guy .
and laughling like mad .
and guess whaT.
one of them is my cs friend somemore.
bloody cuckkoo . =D
hmmm ..
so and somemore ,
someone making mini concerts.
singing songs that sounds like shit lah.
i sing like 100x better than him lohs .
he kena reject from campus superstar then bobian. = /

so woke up le hor .
straightaway pack some of my things in ..
den went to brush my teeth and wash up .
so after that, went to check my towel .
it was still wet like -.-
so decided not to take it out . =0
so sat there and stare on my surroundings like a moron .
so its 7.20 !
pt time .
wahh . pt was hell lah .
sleep not enuf le .
althought pt was kinda slack.
still bloody tired.
so kinda dont remember what we did le .
den it was afternoon le .
oh ya , debriefing was quite tense lahs.
cuz we aint leadin
and we are the last.
hmmm . bad bad news lohs.
so we were like determined to push ourselves back to the game .
so after having our lunch .
we had station games.
okays ,
that was not bad after all . =/
but we only played one station.
and the dark clouds begins to flood around the sky,.
and it rained -.-
so its like , i recovered from illness and it just rains.
so wtf - - .
okays so forget about all of it already .
we went back to our sports hall to assemble.
then our main comm tell us to play games and discuss about
our performance night.
so one of our teammate. amanada.
wrote a script lohs .
den because most of us are lazy to think .
so decided to take the SCript.
so at first, we were like splitting into groups .
like . dancing,the actors,and the fighters.
cuz our script is about our group name ,.
which means that it is a empire with warriors .
and the script is trying to say that.
in order to win the princess ,
the guy must beat everyone in order to get her heart.
so its like , quite touching lahs.
i joined the dancing de.
LOL .
at first i was suppose to make girls' sound laaaa.
but bo bian ,
in the end i go dance also .
so we discussed and planned for like 2.1/2 hours .
quite baddd laaaaaaaaaaaa.
oh ya i remember already .
morning we were learning mass dance and the handsign songs.
=DD

okok .
so after that, had our dinner,
most of us rush to have our rehearsal .
we almost screwed up i guess.
=)
so its performance night time !
ROXXXORRRR.
so high lahs can .
this year's trend .
all gays.
-.-
super zai .
i thought we were unique to think of this .
but all of the empires got ..
zz. -..- bth .
okays .
so after everythingg le .
ITS DANCING TIME !
so we MASS DANCE .
and iTS SO HIGHHHHH .
and sing tp song and handsign song .
and after that .
ITS DISCO TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
LOL .
the dj ,
abit ..
- -
the song .. --
u know u know .=D
shall not say more .
quite nice lahs.
but not a lot of effort shown in remixing.
just always a small part.
okays i dance for 45 mins and i stopped.
so damn blooodyy tiring .
so went to find kaiwen to get a drinkk .
yea, drink .
so they decided to get their supper.
when im still full .
so forget it. i followed them lohs .
bwg,
so slack at the vending machine and was like going to sleep .
so slack there .. for 1 hr i think . or more .
and WE WERE LATE to gather.
OMFG.
=/
but forget it laaaa.
wasnt delibrately also . =/
so debriefing was like 1hr+ also .
about 1am finish . COOL HUH . =/
so after that waiting to bathe .
and i think . i slept at 1.30am .
LOLLLOOL.
super duper tiring.
tml write 3rd day . SO MUCH TO WRITE KAYS. =)

Nlyg.<3

8:09 PM

Y Saturday, April 14, 2007

FOC ROXX.=)
wtf,
only 2 went for the camp.
its like .
omgomg?
hmmm ..
so its like,
i went in the sports complex with jj .
and i was splitted away from him .
hmmm ..
screwed.
totally so foreign sias the group .
the group ,
i think i dont even know 1 lohs.
and i cant shout for the first day. LOL.
my vocals got prob sial !=/
so i bwg llohs.
whole day keep quiet like guai kia.
and somemore a guai kia got 3 earhole .
so abit strange lo . =/
so first day they thought us cheers and play icebreaker lohs .
standard mah .
=/
i think we dont really know each other's name so well also lohs.
so the gl (group leader) thought us cheers and introducing themselves lah .
tp's ppl are cool i can say .
whahahha . =/
hmmm . so played and cheer until dinner.
looked forward to the dinner cuz i dint eat breakfast and lunch .
so abit shag also .
loll .
budden ,
the dinnneer...
i shall not say anyymore =D
so after the dinner , due to the wet weather .
our station game's venue got change from tampines central to tp campus .
and because to start first, we must cheer the loudest.
and the first day . it was bad lahs.
nobody know each other.
onlly got a girl call minmin.=/
i can only say i really peifu her to the max.
at first i see her,
dont really like her .
now i really know never judge a book by its cover.
she got good leadership qualities sia.
she got initaitive.
which i dont have.
sian , ppl still say i got leadership qualities.
now i begin to doubt le .
i think part of it because i scared ppl say this not good there not good bah.
haiz. =(
i want cry le lahh . =/

okays.. so ...
i dint play the station games.
cuz everybody cheered too loud and i cannot take it .
so head dizzy like mad .
so ate medication and rest lohs .
hmmm .. so debriefing starts again and feedback is coming .
okays.
so i write until here le .
tml den cont. to write. tiredtired me. (:

Nlyg.<3

11:23 PM