okays after nearly 2 mnths of mia-ing in blogs. time to blog la . . this holiday rocks i think . club 2 times only . :D but theres lotsa sad things to be reminded of uh .
it starts at a camp at somewhere on sometime back ago . he joined the camp with his friend and realised theres not a lot of people from his school joining . so he and his friend was splitted up . he felt lonely and foreign as he does not know anyone . everybody to him was a stranger. the leaders talk to him and he tried to replied calmly . in case if they feel that he is afraid or what .
the first day he was very quiet. as he was a shy boy . second day he became more energetic and trying to join in the pack . third day was the last day . he only got 2 friends with him . 2 new friends. the rest he does not really talk to them . ' but here comes the treasure hunt event . he was split among his group into small groups . one of the mission was to hold hands with a opposite sex. he was lost. he dont know who to find or who to hold . just then . he saw her . she was alone . he walked towards her and asked her . you mind ?" she said " no . and they hold hands. he did not know her existence til he saw her . she look like a princess to him . they had lots of fun . in the end . she ask for his number to keep as a friend . he felt happy .
so he went home and messaged her . and get to know her abit more . he thought she was the same age as him . but never did he expect that she was 1 yr older. and 1 year older means her thinking is so much older too . he wanted to give it a try. he wanted to go for her . maybe he is naive. but he is trying his best to do it too .
so theres an event hosted at a place. and he was in school collecting his o level certificate. she called him asking whether if he is going . he was wearing casual clothings without extra clothings. he wanted to say no . but after thinking he agreed and rushed down to meet her . after meeting her he met two of her good friend . so they were chatting so happily til reaching the destination .
they sticked with each other very closely . even dinner they sat in a circle. and had fun together. discussing things. and took the same transport home .
although he likes her . but he does not express out . he is scared because she might just ignore or reject him . so he keep quiet and act calmly . he does not want to let people know he likes her .
so he just agrees on whatever she is doing or what . after a few weeks. they met again . and this time it was different. she was very heartbroken because of some things . he saw her cry . but was aimless . because he does not know what to do . or how to console . he is neither good in consoling nor comforting . he felt helpless . staring at her . crying. what he could do was giving her tissues. he wants to hug her. but he has no courage . until now . he still remembers the event clearly . how heartbroken he was . when he saw her cry.
he felt he got a chance at first. but he threw it away again . and until now . he still ..... struggling .
end . :D
anyways what a long story uh .:D end here . do homework time . =/