how much i want to tell you that i love you. (:

Y Tuesday, January 24, 2006

hmmx. so long never blog le. guess its time to blog bahh. hahahhaa. homework still stacking alot bahh. but slowly clearing and clearing. headache. >.<" sibei jialat nowadays. maybe the maths im doing. i cant rush things nowadays. headache and dizzy gets on so irritating. >.<

bleahh. nowadays m y temper is damn bad. thought about lots of things le. im being a good guy. a kind guy. but nobody knows the problem i have. wth. am i so easily builled and taken advantage. wtf. screwed off and whatsoever.

i have an attitude. i know. i never showed it to people only. and people think that im good to bully and whatsoever. once im really angry. life sux for u all. better dont make me angry. and nowadays the weather is so bad that its making me sleep. not about raining or what. its the place im sitting . . i think so. hack care also. now im concentrating on studies.

i just dont understand. if i dont talk. i seriously will sleep. what u want me do. tell me lahh. not i want to sleep de. when i get sianned all over. i confirm slp de. what can i do. this is what i cant control. what u want me do. i talk i get scolding. if i tell u teachers. would u even care or what? . . . u all just think that we are like slacking slacking. at the dark. we study like a mad ass. no matter how tired. im keeping myself awake. but until i cant stand it. i really needa talk. but i know the concentration will be gone. . .

hack care things. i dont know what to say now.
utterly off.
chinese new year is coming.
and im not feeling well.
common test is coming.
chem test is coming.
nyaa need to hand in. and i think i dont have enuf cip.
OH SHIt.
bleahh.
i dont know.
i dont wanna disappoint anybody bah. =)
nights. =/
i dont know what to say to u.
do i have hope.
i really dont think so.
after u wrote in that message.
im broken into pieces once again.

Nlyg.<3

9:03 PM

Y Sunday, January 15, 2006

gosh. its 2133 now. gosh lahz. i finish a maths but not emaths bah. GOSH. tomorrows a long day again. hope mr yao doesnt make us stay back once again. its super tiring now.. i guess i'll finish my homework after 11pm again. thats irritating for sure. =( sleeping sleeping sleeping. . .

yesterday slept at 0340 am. what a tiring day. before that. i went out with xiong. melissa. andy. and fabienne. hmmmx. ate quiet a lot of things. drank tiger and whatsoever. think i got write in my last blogging ba. hmmx.. then went andy's hse there ma. the multi purpose court. went there and have a rest.. then joyce reach my house there.. so went to fetch her lo. since she want to use computer and her shoe was at my house. =.="

hmmx. at first. i tot her parents were coming abt at 2+. so i wasnt that tired after all la. but . . my wireless mouse suddenly no battery.. then so pissed off lah. =.= no computer to use mah.. hmmx.. then joyce complained cuz her stomach is calling out.. >.< hungry. so i gave her a pot a chopstick and a bowl and she settled herself. i drank milk liaos. so dint eat. ^^ . hmmx. then so tiring lohz. waiting there and sitting facing the computer while the eyes is closing. so DOTS.

hmmx.. skip skip skip. . staring the computer with nothing to do. then her parents called . =) finally i get to slp. ^^ so sent her down then run back home to slp lahhhhhhhh. !

so this morning. woke up at noon. d0ts. was suppose to wake up in the morning to mop the house. but no choice lo. so ate my lunch le then began to do my work.. nowadays.. my stomach aches damn easily. i dont understand lahz. hope nothing happen bah. then finish work le.. rode my bicycle and went to interchange to get batteries. . >.< so many ppl siax today. buay tahan. and the weather seriously sucks. so hot. hot until i kept perspiring. bought blue coral ice blend. =) then went out le..

played a cs match. the team was like a fucking hacker team. i dint notice that the server had vac off. fuck lahz. or else i will say dont want de. cuz it totally sucks la. confirm got hacker de. pui them. fuck off.

hmmx. after that went bball lohz.. at blk 504. >.< tiring loh. after playing for abt 2 hours ++ . . then my cousin came and friend. LOL. they came quite late lahhz. then went to eat dinner with my friend.. talk about football as usual lah.=) madness. den jux reach home only. ^^

hope tomorrow's a good day.`
i believe in miracles`
i believe in u`
=)
i dont want to face the darkness already`
i need ur sunlight`
=).
waitingg. waitingg .

Nlyg.<3

9:32 PM

g0sh. its 2am already. =) hahas. and im now blogging. what a strange guy i am. without doubts. =x hmmx.. this is so tiring.. Lolz. im bored. what to do. my maple is beginning to have problems. im pissing off by the problem that when i played it less than 50 seconds. it just shut off itself. im quitting maple. im sure. my computer has too much mmorpg le. >.< 160 gb lidat confirm very fast finish de.

nowadays always going out late in the night. think my parents not happy le. im not gonna say anything. im keeping quiet bah. i need my own time sometimes ba. =) hmmx.. think they are giving me some freedom le bahx.. im happy for this. thanks dad and mom. =)

hmmx.. >.<" lifes being pretty stress as usual lahz. homeworks stacking. tests coming. im failing my chemistry test. screwed cuz i dint learn. this is damn bad. i canot take it lahz. its like i kept forgetting to bring them to school to ask. guess sometimes im abit laggy. >.<"

sleeping in class. i cant change it lahz. its like. if the lesson is very sianned. not becuz of its content. but its the way they teach. its quite sianned bah. i dont want say anything more lah. in case some people sees it. then they go tell. LOL. =xxXx

ahhh. test in abt 3 weeks time ? i dont really have confidence. this common test shld be the report that determines my future. my confidence of whether to achieve my target. trying to rush for this year. but sometimes. i just felt extremely tired of it. =) tired of things around me.

i just hate to say the spoiler. spoiler. pissing me off lahz. i seriously dont wanna say much. come on. i dont know lahz. this is like. AHHH. LAME lahz. .l. really lo. i jux dont wanna interpret. =x if i interpret. i think the whole world will find u LAME. seriously. people own u a controller nias. u pester ppl like siaos. ppl go eat lunch got problem sia. its abit lame la. but really buay tahan lohz. what the hell is this. no comments. u think will controller very ex meh. fake one leh. >.<" pui. bleahs.

hope . hope . hope .
i need hope . ?
i dont know .
confused .
=.= " . . .
lemme decide on my own . . .
dont pressure me. . .
seriously. . .
i will become goner. . .

aI.sI.nI.=))

Nlyg.<3

2:05 AM

Y Wednesday, January 11, 2006

omg. why is friendster so lag. so pekchek. i guess today im blogging all the shit things happening. im so irritated. even play games also got people taunt here and there. this is damn screwed up.

hmmx. starting . school wasnt that badd lahhhh.. hahha.. cuz d0ne all my homework. jux scared abt englishh. hmm.. i wrote 650 w0rds. i think excessively. repeated lines all over. but i made an effort alrite. pls dont scold me! Lolz. hmmx. wasnt a good day as my stomach is aching now and then. just dont understand whats going out in my body. pissed. very pissed. spoilt mood the whole day.

nvm la. this kinda thing i dont mind. but its like. my mood was alright when school's released. so its not that bad. so went to eat with andy and yizhao. so at first we took a bus. but andy had no change. then take taxi.. hmmx.. went to siglap there. went in to the coffeeshop which sells delicious food. - yummy- hahah. not a bad stall. very delicious. but costy. so bear the pain lo.. den after that slack around the 7-11.. hmmx.. den went home le..

come back home. on comp. played a match of dota. tio owned. x.x bth.. >.< den sibei dulan cuz got leaver ma.. den got matey afk.. play until like shit lidat.. so forget it.. so went to cs. was screwed too. cuz i got pawned prettly badly. until i also pekchek.. so relax a while .. chill chill.. then went back cs. found my cs friends and talked to them lo.. talk until abt 6plus then stop talking.. then continue to cs.. abit form was back. i could only say something. i was born a sniper. =) hahaha.. so forget abt it..

went to haf dinner. so nothing much really happen la.. come back cs again. then got one idiotic asshole.. i really canot stand him. " Do i know u in real life " _|_ go and die la. i know him in cs canot meh. whalan. then daos daos daos. until i really pissed off. i keep quiet all the while and rush. den until canot tahan then i come out. pekchek lo.

now got homework to do. unable to find my geo workbook. having problems with chem. tml is chemistry test. what the hell. vocabulary is done. and a maths i guess. homeworks are stacking. tml is until 320. nvm.. i will get used to it somedays..

=/
ending here. so tiring.
my head is swirling.
thank god i drank coffee.

=)
w0.ai.ni.`

Nlyg.<3

9:42 PM

Y Tuesday, January 10, 2006

ahhh. this just kinda suck lah. i just dont haf feeling to do although im happy im laughing. deep inside me nowadays always lay a question. but i dont know the answer to it. im kinda emotional liaos. bleahs. sometimes thinking so much until my head also hurts. searching in the depths of the sea to find a solution to my answer. i dont know le.. just knew this few days its like this.

avoiding its not the solution. i felt embarassed when seeing u too. ahh. its not i dont want talk to u face to face sometimes. its i cant. i just cant bring myself to talk to u face to face. ahh. i wanted to talk to u so much sometimes. but so near. yet so far. i really cant bring myself to talk to u after that incident. =(

spoiler. words used. i hate people using stupid words on me. im pissed off with it too. its not funny. and i dont see people laughing either. stop laming around. i dont care about ur lameness already. its pissing me off. dont u think its abit stupid doing this. attract attention doesnt need to go until this extent ma. its like throwing away ur self esteem. you are DISGUSTING. utterly piss. always sae that i say u. come on lo. u nv say me ar? as if u dint alrite. i just dont want to mention any shit about u. its like so pissed off lo.

studies are now so important that im having problems with school life. i just suddenly cant cope with my studies as test are flowing around my days. remedials and whatsoever. life is getting tougher i guess. i haf no regrets either. i dont mind. my targets are still on. but now. seriously must study abit liaos. chem test. phy test. and whatsoever. tired le. chinese is adding presssure too. im seriously lack of oxygen for my life. =(

im trap with studies and love. i think i shall go for studies ba. hais. after thinking for so long. studies is important. but having someone beside u suporting u is alot better than u urself overcoming obstacles. but no choice. =/ i cant find the one. or rather i say i found my one. =) haha.. im serious. =x haha. talking crap cuz my head is blank. i think so. =/ hmmx..

my friends. thanks thanks for helping. i appreciate all of ur help. but some things couldnt be helped. and u all understand. =) thanks for being understandable. my best friends. =) all the best to u all and me. =) i appreciate having u all as my friends. =D

hmmx.. dont think too much sister.. =) need any help tell me ba. =) haha... its like everyone's having problem. haha..

ending here.
miracles do happen*
i believe in them*

Nlyg.<3

11:57 AM