Y Tuesday, January 10, 2006
ahhh. this just kinda suck lah. i just dont haf feeling to do although im happy im laughing. deep inside me nowadays always lay a question. but i dont know the answer to it. im kinda emotional liaos. bleahs. sometimes thinking so much until my head also hurts. searching in the depths of the sea to find a solution to my answer. i dont know le.. just knew this few days its like this.
avoiding its not the solution. i felt embarassed when seeing u too. ahh. its not i dont want talk to u face to face sometimes. its i cant. i just cant bring myself to talk to u face to face. ahh. i wanted to talk to u so much sometimes. but so near. yet so far. i really cant bring myself to talk to u after that incident. =(
spoiler. words used. i hate people using stupid words on me. im pissed off with it too. its not funny. and i dont see people laughing either. stop laming around. i dont care about ur lameness already. its pissing me off. dont u think its abit stupid doing this. attract attention doesnt need to go until this extent ma. its like throwing away ur self esteem. you are DISGUSTING. utterly piss. always sae that i say u. come on lo. u nv say me ar? as if u dint alrite. i just dont want to mention any shit about u. its like so pissed off lo.
studies are now so important that im having problems with school life. i just suddenly cant cope with my studies as test are flowing around my days. remedials and whatsoever. life is getting tougher i guess. i haf no regrets either. i dont mind. my targets are still on. but now. seriously must study abit liaos. chem test. phy test. and whatsoever. tired le. chinese is adding presssure too. im seriously lack of oxygen for my life. =(
im trap with studies and love. i think i shall go for studies ba. hais. after thinking for so long. studies is important. but having someone beside u suporting u is alot better than u urself overcoming obstacles. but no choice. =/ i cant find the one. or rather i say i found my one. =) haha.. im serious. =x haha. talking crap cuz my head is blank. i think so. =/ hmmx..
my friends. thanks thanks for helping. i appreciate all of ur help. but some things couldnt be helped. and u all understand. =) thanks for being understandable. my best friends. =) all the best to u all and me. =) i appreciate having u all as my friends. =D
hmmx.. dont think too much sister.. =) need any help tell me ba. =) haha... its like everyone's having problem. haha..
ending here.
miracles do happen*
i believe in them*