how much i want to tell you that i love you. (:

Y Sunday, July 16, 2006

time to blog .
wow. the find just suddenly look so nice to me.
strange.

this few days were sorta irritating.
maybe i dont feel good.
maybe i dont want to hear.
maybe i just wanna run away.
goddammit.
cant you stop telling things.
about you and her.
oh yeahs.
i smile to you.
but den.
deep inside me.
u know how pain bo.
i just dont wanna mention.
but you simply dont understand-

hmmmmmmmmmm.
may be a blog that is not updated always.
sorry about that.
been indulging in some stupid games.
but playin with friends.
so no choice.
im slow in training.
because im moodless to train.
dammn.
tomorrow's o levels lc.
hope just can get a full marks.
hmmmmmm.
have a hunch.
that i wont get good marks.
bleahhs.
nothing to say .

its been so long.
so so so so long.
thinking back.
so many things had happened !
people i like ...
things i done ...
what mad things happened.
those are really memories.
hahas.
maybe im being abit dramatic.
but thats me.
who cares about it anyway.
i hate being so fierce.
goshh .
sometimes.
i just really wanna release everything out.
but i just cant.
CANT.
WHY.
i also dont know .
just know that.
its painful painful ~!

maybe now its not the time to do this.
maybe its the wrong time that everything happened.
hmmm.
dont care le ~
see how it goes..
hmmmxxx !~

frankie's party was yesterday.
so DAMN tired.
rushed all our food like mad asses.
really tired.
it was rather a bloody day for me.
just because i go break the ice with the tongs.
i cut 5 fingers.
fabulous >? x))
out of 10 fingers.
5 injured.
while eating spag.
i suddenly realised that i bled.
then i stared at mel.
then she see my hand.
den suddenly everybody saw it.
i was shocked to hell lohs.
den everyone so kanjiong.
den i myself stunned there.
madness.
5 cuts.
3 out of 5 deep cuts.
isn't that bloody day?

after that.
continue eating.
and the forks i touched.that big piece of ice.
all got blood.
gOSHHHH.
after finishing eating.
den went up to bear de room`~
played my NFS with nicky .
he got owned.
my rx-8 looks like as if it is the king.
hahas.
maybe im too exaggerating.
but who cares.
x)
after that. all went to bear's top floor de room.
played mahjongg.
taught joyce and lifang mahjongg.
cool ~
not bad.
after that i went to play cheat ~
WOOOOOO~
to say the truth .
mel is the greatest cheater.
omg.
she cheats emotionless.
den the dumb bear and nick.
sometimes so dumb.
until everyone laughed.
muahaha.
x))
after that. i let lifang play.
in the end.
they said lifang is very honest.
LOL.
that is like so LOL can.
played this 2 games until midnight.
then WALKED home.
goshhh~~

hahas...
next morning got tuition
sibei siann de wor.
wake up and sitting there like an idiot.

hmmmx.
cousin came my house.
and played a gundam game.
WOOOO~
I GOT DA INTERNATIONAL FOR FFX.
finally.
im gonna defeat that so-call DARK YOJIMBO.
7 times.
overall 30++ million.
cool isnt he ?
one move of his damage the whole team 99999.
Lolz xP

hmmmx.
overall.
for sunday.
i was thinking the whole day.
i could not settle down.
i dont know why.
my mind's being turning and turning.
pissed.
shall not say anymore.
time to sleep.

i give up with no reasons.
i know.
im weak.
since he really seemed to be so close with her.
i cant do anything.
who knows what will happen
i think too much seriously.
im slowly letting it goes.
sorry brothers.
i disappoint you all.
x)

Nlyg.<3

11:13 PM

Y Tuesday, July 11, 2006

hmmmx.
tiring tiring day.
cant blame.
its hard and it makes ppl sleepy.
what to do.
damn tired.
maybe its because of maple.
hahas.
bored liaos.
x))

hmmmmm..
i wonder.
i wonder.
i wonder.
some things i hope are true.
so that its easy to release.
please make it true.
gosh.
x)) god bless.

my ps2 is back.
hooray ~
now i need controllers. BEAR.
u took both of my controller.
my brother almost went haywire because of u.
idiot.

im guilty.
i spoilt the old comp.
just because i forcefully put it in.
godddamit.
600 bucks.
almost a new comp lia0s.
just changed a few things and casing+fan
hmmm
hope its good.
x) smileesss.

i got an audio technica EARPHONE.
wow its so damn cool alright.
although it cost only 27 bucks.
it looks cool.

i might be broke again.
dammit.
thought i would be rich.
but stupid computer cost me a BOMB .
x(
nevermind.
i shall slowly slowly be thrifty once again
goshhh.
HAH.

tomorrow gonna have sepak takraw again.
it just rocks.
improves my dribbling very well.
excellent ~
hmmmm.
im gonna get a boots soon.
i hope so =)
saving money.

ppl asked me whats my new target.
i just replied.
nobody =)
hmmmmm.
maybe i just feel abit uneasy hearing some things.
just gonna bear with it.

TAG ME PLEASE.
=))
the taggieboard is da link to my tagboard.
its just too long lahhs.
so i converted it to a link.
sorry wor. !
tc. smiles.
SWEET DREAMS ! =)

Nlyg.<3

10:53 PM

football madness.
thats what i know only.
im so in love with football.
whee~
scored 7 goals today.
sibei song.
i so long bo score goal.
suddenly today.
left right foot all can score.
LOL.

hmmmx.
its hard to let go.
maybe im sensitive.
nevermind
just bearing it and moving on.
thanks for visiting my blogs friends
i appreciate a lot.
its a small blog.
hope a lot of viewers.
sad sad story.
thanks benjamin (east spring de)
i will cheer up brother.
thanks huiyi.hahas.
life's being tough though
although i had all my good frens around.
smiles.
x)
i never regretted going for u.
x))

its the end.
its near the end.
im running to the light.
enlighten me.
nights.
tc ~

Nlyg.<3

12:04 AM

Y Saturday, July 08, 2006

fuck.
just realised i got too much homework to hand in i think.
zzzzz.
tired tired tired.
blahhs.

hmmmm.. now blogging at such a time.
isnt it great.
been moodless.
been settling down my feelings.
been down.
been happy.
been sad.
forget it.
i dont know what to say.

some people just hurt me with the words they say.
its just that i bear with it.
i dont let people to know whether they had hurt me a not.
its jusst that.
they just fucking take advantage.
i got nothing to say.
im not Mr. Nice Guy anymore.
it makes me so dumb.
so idiotic.
so moronic.
everything let let let.
might as u stay at my house.
move luggage.
give u my bed.
right.
hmmmx.

just throwing out stuffs like this.
i dont wanna have misunderstandings between u and me.
forget it.
our friendship is rocky.
i dont know what to do.
and im not doing anything
im serious.
im just looking at it.
just trying to hide my feelings away.
fake happy.
and so on.
u think im happy.
just because i smile.
forget it.
i dont know whether u understands me a not.
u still tells me about her. what the .
what u want me to do.
tell me lahhs.
tomorrow.
not going lan.
i needa do some tuition homework.
giving up.
for the sake of him.
Z.
no choice
my blessings
tc.
x) smile. hugs.

Nlyg.<3

12:21 AM

Y Thursday, July 06, 2006

todayy was a good day !
i think.
out to school with a happy mood.
won $$ !
wooooo~
hahas.. tio scolding also blur blur de.
wheeeee..
although its a long day.
laughters and so on.

went to school and never thought of taking note of her.
even if she walked pass or what.. i dont have the courage to look too.
i dint look.
i look on the board.
pain.
so pain.
although i dint got her.
but it still hurts.
bearing with it bahhs !x)

football rocks.
basketball rocks.
swimming rocks.
been playing this few things for the past few days.
isnt that sweet ? x))
im on the diet i guess.
i wanna be abit slimmer.
its too fat now.
x)
80kg my target.
long wayyyyy..
x))
hahas.
stoppping here.
brother wanna play.
i haven eat dinner.
rock on peeps !

Nlyg.<3

8:02 PM

Y Wednesday, July 05, 2006

hmmmx.. blogging everyday now.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..
everything seemed alright today .
x)
nothing wrong i guess.
i dont wanna say anything.
maybe its a misconception.
maybe thats just nothing.
maybe i think too muchh.
i shall stop these once and for all.
its up to you to go for it.
and its time for me to stop and go back.
its just like relay.
so, i cant stop either ways.
i cannot harm you.

nevermind.
money.girl. blahs.
they are more important.
i wont talk to you that much either.
why let me see these scenes.
you all dont realise its hurtful.
im also human.
i will get green.
why tell me u all going out?
why this and that.
im fierce.
yes i certainly am fierce.

one sentence can just take me as fierce.
serious tone?
funny.
no people said that was fierce.
only you said that.
maybe i get the wrong idea.
maybe i just get it wrong.
and i cant get it right.
sorry .

walking back-
maybe its just for my own good.
everybody saying im avoiding.
yes.
im avoiding.
but what to do.
STARE at them ?
o.O
im sick of listening to problems suddenly.
because suddenly i just had too much worries.
worrying this and that.
ahh.
maybe im just too kpo liaos.
i shall not care so many things anymore.
wait a million years.
den maybe some things may change.
PUI.

when someone dont smile,
it does not mean they are sad.
when someone smile,
it just hints that they may be giving a broken smile.
i cant say its wrong to smile.
its just smiling at the right time or the wrong time maybe.

im wrong.
just wrong.
wrong to the core.
wrong wrong wrong wrong.
everything just went wrong.
i am me.
em ma i.
why must i change for the sake of the other part.
it depends.
not saying that this is a bad habit or whatsoever.
stupid me.
i guess im stupid this time.
beaten by my stupidity.

being stupid kinda rocks too. =)
at least they do not need to care-
of the surroundings and so on.

tonights match.
portugal france.
do i even care who win?
so what portugal win ?
so what u all jeered portugal?
so what you all dont support portugal.
issit my problem?
i support france.
and i dont jeer portugal.
they are two strong teams with-
individual abilities on the field.
what france will lose.
if france win how ? stupid fools .

maybe what i type now is venting my anger.
but some things are true.
irritating.
just throwing everything out.
i dont care much either.
not happy can go away.
one lesser reader or one more reader.
i dont mind.
at least i knew i got close friends with me.
x)

pain pain pain pain -
dieting now i guess.
=x
hmmx.
trying to lohs.
i wanna be slim.
but not fat.
just okok can le .
x)
now i just cant run that well le.
just realised.
-.-
fat fat fat fat.
last time run 2.4km = not that jialat.
now = DIE.
slowly slowly building stamina.
swimming running swimming running.
isnt that good? x))
wahahs.
chocolate..
damn.
i got so muchhhhhhh at home.
tibits too.
bEar with it bahhs.
abit will do horrs.
x))

hmmx.
tomorrow will be thursday le.
time pass.
damn.

struggling with everything.
no effort done.
studied to no avail.
maybe.

i dont care whatever u all do le.
bless u all .
tc.
god bless all.
x)
smiles.
hugs.

Nlyg.<3

4:57 PM

Y Tuesday, July 04, 2006

this few days were hell to me .
not just hell.
just make me feel lost in the darkness.
i did not know what to do suddenly.
everything just popping out suddenly.
it just makes me hard to react.

sorry my brother.
i know how u feel now.
thousand apologies. sad to the core.
i should not have done that in the first place.
im sorry .

thinking back.
i was selfish.
i did not go and understand other people's feeling.
i just asked people to go out and blah blahs.
sowwie sowwie .
hais .
thinking bad i was an idiot man .

today is just a bad day.
i talked so much.
but inside me,
theres so many things hidden from everyone.
i dare not say .
i dare not tell.
worried.sad.disapointment.
no happiness or something.
only with some gamer goody goody friends.
at least we laughed like mad
thats the good thing.

hmmmmmmmm..
went swimming today.
was abit moody.
so kept swimming and swimming.
more than 10 rounds bahhs .
last time i can do in continuously.
now i cant.
sad.
abit disappointing again.

had a bathe there and off i went to get dinner,
until now, im sitting on the chair in front of my computer.
germany italy.
what is this .
-.-
lols.
just hoped it draws.
x))
SMILE !

i love the picture we took. =x
thanks so much my baichi de meis .
x))
always scold me baichi.
actually u are the one lohhs .
x))
hmmmx .
yesterday's steamboat was nice. rockon! x))
3 couples.
and 3 bachelor.
x)) WHEEEEEE..
hope we gonna have it another time !!
these are friends we cherish .
x) smilesss.
x))
hugsss takecare all .
imalright and dont worry.
x)

Nlyg.<3

6:02 PM